1st Quarter of 2024

     I've gotten on the wrong medication and need to inform my psychiatrist that there needs to be something that works better on depression, fights insomnia and keeps me awake during the daylight, so I'm not typing at 6:00 am and playing video games at 4:00 am, sleeping at 8:00 am until 2:00 pm.  I intend to foil this today by trying to stay active online and also offline.

 

    I do not trust most of humanity these days, they act arrogantly, self-centered and proudly homophobic.  Websites I've been a part of now feel like NeoNazi pizza parties with no connection between me and them, if it wasn't for Tara Platt, Dawn M. Bennett, Abby Trott and Sarah McKnight, I'd flush Twitter down the toilet, having more joy posting to BlueSky.  I am honestly hoping the 4 make it their homebase, they relate well to the public and are funny, the kind of people I need the most while I hope for local Facebook groups to set up events.  The artists of BlueSky are great, but I feel I can only talk to them about entertainment; Tara, Yuri and Sarah gave me advice when my depression was high by my down-the-hall neighbor.  He is still playing hate speech and I hope he and those like him will be handed defeat in November, showing that America does not want hate speech disguised as Christianity anywhere near the government.  I worry that since a lot of good is happening for me their conquest is inevitable.

 

    I might be able to see the Seattle Kraken play the San Jose Sharks soon, I need my passport renewed for the Hostel.  I also received word of an Ozzy Osbourne Tribute Band coming to the Shakedown later in April, followed by the Braves against the Mariners.  May has the Royals against the Mariners, while June has a Pride Anthems show at the Mt. Baker Theatre, 1964 the Tribute (a Beatles Tribute) in Seattle and Washington State Summer Con, which will feature Colleen Clinkenbeard (Erza Scarlet, Ritsuko from Evangelion (movies 2.22 and 3.33 only), Momo, Luffy, Elsie Crimson), Abby Trott (Annette Fantine Dominic, Nezuko, Noel Seeker), (It also takes place on Edelgard’s Birthday), Luci Christian (Ochako, Nami), Ron Perlman (Mr. Lancer from Danny Phantom, Pacific Rim, Monster Hunter), Michael Dorn (REGIS Mark V, Fright Knight), Allen Oppenheimer (Darm in Ys), and Melendy Britt (Original She-ra and Catra, 7 Friendly Giants Evil Queen), for starters.  August has the Mariners playing the Phillies.  If this goes off without a hitch all that'll be left is seeing the Mariners playing the Dodgers, Rockies and Guardians.

    Tonight, I'm going to see Godzilla x Kong; The New Empire.  After this, I'm getting a haircut tomorrow, working on my passport and hopefully seeing my nephew's Birthday party.  Here are the songs I liked for the first quarter of this year, we'll see how many make it to the end.

1.)    Dangdang-Mamamoo+

2.)    Tea For One/I Can’t Quit You Baby (Live)-Joe Bonamassa

3.)    Gold Dust Woman (Live)-Warren Haynes, Jim James, Grace Potter

4.)    Times Like These (Live)-Dave Grohl, Warren Haynes

5.)    Everlong (Live)-Dave Grohl

6.)    Comfortably Numb (Live)-Gov’t Mule

7.)    Barracuda-Plush

8.)    Night In-Brittney Spencer

9.)    Simple Man-Artimus Pyle Band, Sammy Hagar

10.) The Needle and the Spoon-Artimus Pyle Band, Lindsay Ell

11.) Call Me The Breeze-Artimus Pyle Band, Billy Ray Cyrus

12.) Saturday Night Special-Artimus Pyle Band, Warren Haynes

13.) Against the Winds-Revolution Saints

14.) Fall On My Knees-Revolution Saints

15.) Lost in Damnation-Revolution Saints

16.) Will I See You Again-Revolution Saints

17.) Show Me Your Light-Revolution Saints

18.) Save All That Remains-Revolution Saints

19.) Think About-Moon Byul

20.) TOUCHIN&MOVIN-Moon Byul

21.) 10,000 Volts-Ace Frehley

22.) Doctor (Work It Out)-Pharrell Williams and Miley Cyrus

23.) War Pigs-Zakk Sabbath

24.) Paranoid-Zakk Sabbath

25.) Iron Man-Zakk Sabbath

26.) Electric Funeral-Zakk Sabbath

27.) Hand of Doom-Zakk Sabbath

28.) Rat Salad-Zakk Sabbath

29.) After Forever-Zakk Sabbath

30.) Children of the Grave-Zakk Sabbath

31.) Into the Void-Zakk Sabbath

32.) Mercy-The Native Howl, Lzzy Hale

33.) Panic Attack-Judas Priest

34.) The Serpent and the King-Judas Priest

35.) Invincible Shield-Judas Priest

36.) Devil in Disguise-Judas Priest

37.) Crown of Horns-Judas Priest

38.) As God Is My Witness-Judas Priest

39.) Escape from Reality-Judas Priest

40.) Sons of Thunder-Judas Priest

41.) Giants in the Sky-Judas Priest

42.) Fight of your Life-Judas Priest

43.) Vicious Circle-Judas Priest

44.) Bye-Ariana Grande

45.) Supernatural-Ariana Grande

46.) True story-Ariana Grande

47.) The boy is mine-Ariana Grande

48.) Yes, and?-Ariana Grande

49.) Imperfect for you-Ariana Grande

50.) Supernatural-Ariana Grande and Troye Sivan

51.) Leave it All Behind-BabyMetal, F.Hero and Bodyslam

52.) Since You Been Gone-Graham Bonnet, Marty Friedman

53.) Crack Cocaine-Billy Morrison, Ozzy Osbourne, Steve Stevens

54.) Tattoo-Lee Aaron

55.) Dark Matter-Pearl Jam

56.) Running-Pearl Jam

57.) Legendary-Bon Jovi

58.) Stay Free-Black Country Communion

 

The first few were actually from last year, but there was no place for them then and they were too good to ignore.

Deep, recent angers

     I got out of the apartment today for some stand-up comedy, and while the first half of the show was more crude than I imagine Mom wanted when she bought the tickets, it was still nice to get out and get the mood down.  However, there are still 4 recent hard blows that I feel I should write down somewhere just to get them off my chest and the words are too numerous for a social media post.

 

    My Dad's Regal gift cards are not working to buy a ticket for Godzilla x Kong; the New Empire, even though I'm putting in the numbers correctly.  I also have forgotten how to use gift cards directly from your phone's wallet on the Regal website.  This is keeping me from buying tickets right now and I'm also really mad at the distributor, Warner Brothers, for another point on this.

 

    WB decided to shut down Rooster Teeth and I get the feeling it wasn't that it was causing part of them to go into the red, but that it wasn't making ENOUGH money and they wanted to make the biggest success story out of it since the WWE, Ninja Turtles, Foo Fighters or the MCU, take your pick.  This isn't just a blow to me, but to everyone who finally got a queer love story in media, the only other ones I can think of are Sailor Uranus and Sailor Neptune (even then, 'how they met' was only in the backstory of one episode), Korra and Asami (who only got together in the finale), Catra and Adora and Edelgard and Byleth with Dorothea and Petra, some also say Hubert and Ferdinand and others say Hilda and Marianne and still others say Mercedes and Annette and Dimitri and Dedue, however, Nintendo doesn't give the same-gender couples of Three Houses the exposure as trailblazers they deserve and some, the actor or actress/a generous portion of the fandom puts with someone of the same gender, like Marianne and Dimitri, Annette and Felix, Hubert and Bernadetta or Annette and Caspar, so it lacked the exposure Yang and Blake had.

 

    What's worse is homophobia seems to be on the rise.  Elon Musk no longer recognizes it as a word, enabling hate crime on Twitter, Tennessee passed a law that no marriage justice or pastor had to do a marriage they refused on spiritual grounds (knowing if brought before the Trump Court, they would rule in favor of criminalizing gay marriage nationwide, overturning the 2015 verdict just as they did Roe v. Wade), the phrase "Smear the queers," no doubt a rallying cry for the new/old Republican nominee for President to enact genocide or at least mass criminalization of their Bill of Rights-guaranteed freedoms and the self-evident truths the nation founded itself upon in the Declaration of Independence, that all men are created equal and free to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness, which has outlawed slavery and brought suffrage (the right to vote) to women. On top of that, I could not watch a video of 20th century theologian and author JRR Tolkien discuss his notions on the concepts of absolute good and absolute evil without my YouTube frontpage receiving homophobic rants that I ultimately dismissed by looking up Sailor Uranus and Sailor Neptune together and Edelgard and Byleth slaying the Immaculate One.  I was worried it may happen again when I saw Johnny Cash's video of "God's Gonna Cut You Down" for featuring two public figures, one of whom went on a homophobic/idiotic rant while running for Senator of Michigan, the other beat his bisexual wife to a point she couldn't fight back, then penetrated her with a whisky bottle, a story I found too horrific and gruesome to be made up as many claimed.

 

     The last is minor in comparison.  I am trying to bury Twitter in the past, but keep going back to check on the voice actors still there, namely Tara Platt, Dawn M. Bennett (both of whom I met at Anime Washington) and Abby Trott.  All of them are "people" people, like multiple people persons, friendly, comedic, they love encouraging people and sharing fanart of their roles and pictures of their pets.  Tara led me to author Sarah McKnight, who finds joy in an ordinary career and being an anime fan and gamer who is an adult.  I wish I could see them on BlueSky and not have to go back and see those trending topics, it feels at least once every three days there is something prejudiced pooped onto my computer's screen, and I just imagine a bunch of aggressive white farmers with overalls and pitchforks chanting it in front of a pleased Trump, toting flamethrowers and machine guns, ready to do another January 6th and kill hundreds of Democrats and believe the Supreme Court will rule they committed no crime so they can do it repeatedly until America is just them, nobody else.  The men, killed, the women, raped.  My anxiety-depression mind cannot shed this notion of several American football teams' worth of arsonists, rapists, vandals and murderers behind every last trending topic tweet that bears the heartlessness of the current Republican party, just waiting for an excuse to turn America into Nazi Germany, only worse.  If they win, I'd rather avert my eyes to BlueSky, so I can die forgetting the horror of their existence, assuming they kill me quick and don't fulfill my torture anxiety I've had since 6th grade.