Friday, September 9, 2011

Battling Depression still

Hey all,
As I mentioned on Facebook and Twitter, I've been told the Cyrus family and Rock Mafia family has become like heroin for me.  I have been instructed to take a break, which is difficult, I hate not listening to "Achy Breaky Heart," "Can't Be Tamed," "The Climb," and "Party" whenever I want.  What's worse, as I think during this break about it, I can only think how addicts can never develop a healthy relationship with their drugs, they must quit them outright and NEVER use them or go near them again.  If this has been my relationship with Miley, Demi, Billy Ray, Brandi and the others, it means I can never listen to their music again, which hurts.  Sure, The Beatles and Lynyrd Skynyrd service great music, but it pains me to not listen to all the music I like, as well as have to think of a future where I can't film a documentary about what Faith, Religion and Jesus mean to Miley Cyrus, Brandi Cyrus, Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez and AnnaSophia Robb.  I can only see me becoming a clerk in some local shop, and I don't want to sit on the sidelines as awesome films like the Transformers trilogy and the Avengers universe saga get made.  I also don't want to make films without the possibility of meeting people who've inspired me.  So, I keep thinking while I work and volunteer, wondering of a way out.

1 comment:

  1. It seems to me that all artists struggle with achieving their dreams, sometimes having to re-think the projects they had been planning or give them up entirely when proven unworkable or unhealthy. I know, for you, that's not necessarily the case just now, but I think it's good to recognize a potential problem and take measures to avoid letting it grow. However, I don't know that you would have to give up the music entirely, forever - maybe, after taking a break from it, you can try listening once and see if it brings back the same feelings. If so, give it up again for a while and then try it - and I'm talking possibly a year or more between tries. We all grow and change, and what excites us right now is not necessarily going to sustain over the course of our lives.

    Above all, remember that God has you in His hand and that every struggle you face, every challenge, every moment you feel down, HE is there with you. In EVERY THING give thanks - not for the "thing" itself, but that God is with you in it.

    Keeping you in my prayers... hugs!

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