Rage against a broken system

I don't want to do this anymore.  I want to be arrested.  I want to be beaten by the police and called a threat to national security solely for being a Christian ally to the LGBTQ+ community.  I can't take living in a country where high-ranking politicians are homophobic, high-ranking "Christians" are homophobic and there is no hope for change, unless change means my Church, other reconciling congregations, the ELCA and the LGBTQ+ community get shoved into Gitmo-style military prisons.  I use the 21st century drugs of choice, the internet and music, to convince myself everything will be fine and I don't need to worry or stress about these things.  But it's all a smoke and mirrors lie.  Fanart provides a few moments of a thrill before it gets old, musicians routinely get torn apart for their imperfections by society or are hailed as gods and the only constant is the bile of hatred from the right wing ordering you into a smaller and smaller box!  I've left such a Church, and someone who would fit right it lives right across the hall from me, playing sermons from a pre-rock and roll era on his iPad or iPhone as loud as possible with THE DOOR OPEN TO MAKE SURE EVERYONE HEARS IT!  There are better ways to be a missionary, but I imagine this is what he feels God is ordering him to do.  I can't even make out the words, all I hear is an enraged emotion and it makes me feel like when one of the congregants at the old Church invited me to those far-right Facebook pages that claimed Obama was born in Africa, being gay was a choice and Islam was a religion of violence.  The people behind this page went on to contribute most of their finances to Donald Trump in hopes he would create genocide.  Most of the people who voted for this monster, I believe, did so in the hopes of an anti-LGBTQ+ genocide.  I can't get out of my head the thought that Pat Robertson, Michael Sweet, Kirk Cameron and Franklin Graham laughed and broke out the good champagne when my uncle died, when the UMC voted against the One Church plan and especially when Rachel Held Evans died.  These "Spiritual Leaders" are leading people in the opposite direction of Heaven by portraying God as partisan, petty, mean-spirited, un-compassionate and full of wrath and rage over minor, unchangeable things while turning a blind eye to sexual assault and bragging about it!  No wonder American Church Attendance is at an All-Time low!  If we refuse to fix this trend by remaining un-compassionate, by staying where Jonah did when he was first told to go to Nineveh, WE will be the ones in the Lake of Fire!