I’m tired, but not sleepy, so I’m going to write about positive things until I am tired enough to try to go to bed. First off is this thing I wrote earlier today as a rehearsal for seeing Tara Platt at Anime Washington to get my thoughts in order.
Hi, Tara, we’ve spoken quite a bit on Twitter and now I get to meet you and not have a character limit. Edelgard was just what I needed just when I needed it, and I really love her and Mitsuru’s gentle side and your roles as Kali Belladonna and Sailor Moon’s Mom. I would like to get a selfie with you, and if it’s all right, can you hold this Edelgard plush while I hold this Byleth plush? Their relationship made me feel like I was doing something important for more people than just myself. Also, can you say “Whatever happens, I hope you know you’re very special to me?” That’s probably my favorite line you said, it made me feel accomplished. I’m going to record it for personal use for when I’m feeling bad, but I’m only putting it on Facebook, I don’t trust Twitter or YouTube and I told my Facebook friends they don’t have my permission for audio sampling. Thanks, this has been a dream come true. I am glad we could talk; I’ll see you at the panel/online.
Next, one for Brittney Karbowski, also at the convention.
Hi, Brittney. I really like Wendy, Camie and Citrinne, I play the best with Camie in My Hero One’s Justice 2, I loved Citrinne’s conversations with Yunaka, Veyle and Alear, and Wendy really makes me happy, I love a lot about her, her sisterly relationship with Erza, how she takes the strange world of Fairy Tail in stride and how she’s so strong for 12. Could I please have a selfie with you with this Wendy plush I brought for the Convention? It would mean a lot to mean. Thanks so much, I’m really glad you liked the Wendy fanart I shared on Twitter, and I’ll keep using Camie as my main character in My Hero One’s Justice 2.
I am in the factory of Super Mario RPG, there is only a little bit left to the game. Almost 25 years ago, my brother claimed he could beat the game 5 times before I beat it once. He did so, but I am finally about to beat it for the first time, meaning the statement is now complete and he won’t beat it 6 or more times before I beat it once. Also, I met Samus, which I’m pretty sure he never did in those 5 playthroughs. I didn’t complete Yo’ster Isle or Toadofsky’s Melody, but I couldn’t get the rhythm right and I didn’t want to look up the notes for the other, but it was BEAT the game, not get everything in the game or play the SNES version. It has been an absolute nostalgic blast to play, and it feels amazing that sometime today, I will end my first full playthrough, closing a chapter that’s been open for about 25 years. My first copy my cousin took back, I tried an emulator and got stuck on a timing part, and tried the Virtual Console and got spooked by the timing part and stopped in Moleville. They really helped things like perfect timing be less of an issue in the remake, I always felt clumsy not getting them in the original, especially since my brother had no problem. That, honestly, is the thing that hurts me a lot in gaming, the thought “he could do it no problem, why can’t I? Am I just born stupid with no sense of rhythm?”
But looking back, though I played on more casual modes, I found it works for me, makes the game fun, and makes me kind of sad to end them, because the story is over and the friends we made along the way will be gone. That’s why I buy the merchandise and tend to play fighting games, so the RPG characters like Edelgard, Annette, Byleth, Erza, Wendy, Peach and Bowser are always there, and some characters stay forever young sparring each other. My ideal game would have a haven for friends to interact with and recurring missions that would be done every so often, but, ideally that’s real life, though real life is depression with its huge number of giant problems people like me, even in army-size, can’t solve.
I’m starting to get favorites for music for this year, but I want to wait until February or March at least before I start thinking about any kind of playlist. What I can say, though, is Artimus Pyle’s tribute to his old band, Lynyrd Skynyrd, is shaping up well, Sammy Hagar did “Simple Man,” Dolly Parton’s version of “Free Bird” will be re-released and Warren Haynes is going to do “Saturday Night Special” and Billy Ray Cyrus will do “Call Me The Breeze,” the Skynyrd version can be heard in a memorable part of “Wild Hogs.” Judas Priest’s next album sounds good, “Panic Attack” is a criticism of social media and those who rule it to silence disagreement, while “Crown of Horns” is an amazing song about both Jesus and Heavy Metal and the tough, yet exhilarating journey with both. It comes across as a sequel to “Firepower”’s “Guardians/Rising from Ruins.” Ariana Grande also has a good album coming out that same day, March 8th, and just released her first single, “yes, and?” a good song about self-confidence, though its use of swears mean it’ll be something I’ll probably enjoy alone.
I’m trying to have more conversations on social media, I commented on a picture posted by a friend from Church, wondering if her cat “Beezus” had a “Ramona,” and she said “She would’ve but the next rescue cat we got was male and didn’t feel like a Ramon.” Tara Platt played Naruto Monopoly with her son and I showed her the Calvin and Hobbes strip where Calvin tries to rob the bank, ultimately leading Hobbes to put all the Houses and Hotels on Baltic, where Calvin is, declaring he now owes $250,000. She liked that. I am finding, though, social media buffets you with a ton of content that can bog down your mind and keep you from thinking clearly. Examples in my feeds are hearing about politics, hearing about sex-rule cults in certain denominations of Christianity, videos of bands you don’t care about, criticisms/riffs on films you already saw criticized/riffed or films that are out of season, criticisms of things you like that seem downright hostile and fan theories/speculations/possible leaked information from upcoming sci-fi movies. I’m just going to Twitter to see how the Seattle Kraken and Joel Hoekstra are doing, see Edelgard-Byleth fanart, keep up with author Sarah McKnight and voice actors Tara Platt, Abby Trott and Laura Post and their goings-on. YouTube, I try to find some rare classic rock information or footage I’m interested in, such as concerts by Lynyrd Skynyrd, Rush and Fleetwood Mac, as well as the tribute band I’m seeing in March, Petty or Not, and some Godzilla fan videos, mostly things like “what if Shin and Legendary Godzilla fought?” “What if Minus One Godzilla met Legendary Godzilla?” and “Take a look at this new footage of Godzilla’s evolved form in Godzilla x Kong!” Mind you, such stuff tends to lead to dumb memes elsewhere, but these people either present it as though it were one of the movies or like an episode of Death Battle without the cool CGI fight at the end, instead with simpler, simulated graphics. Clips from the movies/media themselves are also enjoyed.
Another thing I like finding on YouTube are baseball and music highlights from games and concerts I went to. I’ve posted some from last year’s Mariners games against the Blue Jays and Padres from YouTube, as well as numerous concert videos and am thinking about doing deep dives in baseball and recording some of my own concert memories as opportunities present themselves. I honestly want to take more videos of myself for YouTube, even though I’m not fond of it forcing you to turn off your adblocker (especially knowing the ads are only going to get worse and more vicious this year). However, the Rock Band videos will likely only go to Facebook because I worry YouTube will flag them for the rock/pop song in the background. I want to get out and experience more of what makes me happy, it’s just hard when depression and anxiety create this sense of a looming cloud of dread and pain, and reality doesn’t offer much comfort or ways out.
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