Anxiety

First off, I think I should mention I have social anxiety disorder.  This is due to the fact that I had to spend most of my childhood in hospitals for the lack of nutrition I received due to my Celiac Disease.  If any of my future posts seem paranoid, this is why.  Here's what it's like with anxiety.

Anxiety is like constantly having a contradictory voice inside your head, designed to make you miserable with fear.  It creates self-loathing, making you constantly second-guess yourself, making you fear going insane, losing your mind.  It thrives on bad news, using it to say there’s no way the desires you enjoy will last, that the desires you hope to come will never arise, that every thought you’ve had, everything you’ve done will lead to your condemnation, eternal torment.  It asks hard questions so you’ll surrender to the other side; relinquish yourself to fit in with others.  Anxiety is like having a demon in your head, one you must wrestle with the help of a therapist and their prescribed medications every single day of your life.