Monday, March 15, 2021

The Honest Truth of Me Right Now

 No, I’m not okay.  I’m lonely, I’m scared, I don’t know who to trust outside of my immediate family and some of my cousins, I overspend on a regular basis, trying to hold onto everything I like, I feel like I’m one of the only people who has the wide variety of tastes I do, I feel unappreciated at best, targeted at worst, I feel like I have to be reduced to a sycophant in order to stay afloat in today’s society, even when the other people say/do things that are wrong or I hate regardless of where they stand on the moral scale, I feel like I’ve been denied Edeleth and Bumbleby fanart to the point I will pay for it even if it puts me in debt with the bank and denies me the ability to purchase food for the rest of the month, I constantly worry about the Mariners’ win-loss record, fearing that if they remain below .500 they will be forced to move, I worry they are putting too much emphasis on Kong in Godzilla vs. Kong, making it clear he’s the one they want audiences rooting for instead of letting you choose who’s the hero and who’s the villain, I find that people are quick to pardon and excuse Conservative Males for sins, or just plain Males, when Liberal Women have their careers and social respect destroyed by their mistakes (see how Janet Jackson’s career collapsed after that one Super Bowl, even though Justin Timberlake was the one who did the deed or Michael Sweet’s opinions on Donald Trump’s “Grab them by the [vagina] remark” vs. Miley Cyrus’ performances) and I feel that if I continue my experiences on DeviantArt, God will abandon me and not forgive me for these actions, sending me straight to the pits of Hell to burn.

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