I Concede All

 I finally feel calm and free.  I want to forget that place and the people on it.  I want to reconcile with my family and create together, abandoning this life of solitude that does not work.  Those people are evil, they will abandon you and not help you in darkness.  They take and take and take, but do not give what you need, just what you want.  Now, I just want music and board and card/party games, not electronic entertainment like that.  It’s wearying and you constantly get into fights.  I’m done, I want to say I accomplished all I wanted to and I don’t want to do any more in that area, other than that Trails game and I will be fine if I decide not to finish it because it’s too hard.  I’m done fighting the GOP and willing to concede Eastern Washington, Idaho, Montana, Arizona, New Mexico, the Dakotas, Wyoming, Utah and the entire South except Georgia to them.  You can have your own America where your own rules are law and you can exercise the death penalty all you want and use slurs all you want, because I don’t want to be angry anymore.  I don’t want to fight anymore, you can even take the name United States of America and the flag, too.  Just let me finally grieve the life you beat out of me and the people you either outright killed or let die through negligence.  Let me finally process all the pain.  So much death, so much hurt, so little I could do…it just makes me so sad and without space to mourn, that sadness turns to outrage.  49 people died at the Pulse Nightclub and it wasn’t enough to make you think “maybe the LGBTQ+ community has suffered enough,” instead you got worse on them.  Just, just go away.  Take whatever you want, declare whatever you want, just…don’t do it here, not in my apartment, not in my house, not in my Church, leave me my sanctuaries.  Leave my friends and family alive, stop proselytizing them.  Stop reminding me of that pain by bringing policies, memes and heteronormativity to my doorstep.  Do it in your place, you can even kill in your own place, just…don’t do it around me and leave those I care about alone.  You can even take Tara, Abby, Sarah, both Lauras and Jeannie, they mean nothing to me anymore, just leave my family, both biological and Church, alone.  Take the MLB, take the MiLB, take Nintendo, take Godzilla, take everything but my music and my biological and Church families.  All is nothing but them.