Real end of 3rd quarter of 2023

     So, I guess I needed more time for medication to kick back in than when I last posted, plus I was able to get some more good music to add to my favorites of this year.  I've honestly been lonely and paranoid of internet trolls and the demise of Twitter since the people I grew up with don't talk as much about video games and anime (or, at least, the ones I watch/play) as I like to.  I also got to see things like Dorothy Elias-Fahn (the voice of Lillymon in Digimon, Kaoru in Ruroni Kenshin and Mercedes in Fire Emblem) like me saying the battle between Godzilla and King Ghidorah in Godzilla; King of the Monsters (2019) was a better snow scene in film than the Battle of Hoth in Empire Strikes Back (if you don't know what that is, what movies DO you watch?  Do you WATCH movies?)  Also, Tara Platt likes that a shirt exists that says "I'm Mitsuru Doing Mitsuru Things" but it is not her style, which, along with Erika Harlacher liking me praising a performance of hers, brought me out of my funk.

 

    I've discovered the next cutest same-gender romance in my media is likely Grace and Freddie in Stray Gods (Laura Bailey and Janina Gavankar, respectively), and it makes me feel good to bring these two together, reminding me of riding the rapids of doubts and external pressure to bring Edelgard and Byleth together.  I was so happy when they hit their A rank, with Edelgard asking Byleth to call her a family-special nickname.  I felt similarly bringing Petra and Dorothea exclusively to their A rank together, and the same for Hubert and Ferdinand in my first playthrough, and in my second Black Eagles playthrough, I worked just as hard and felt similarly marrying Annette with Caspar (which ended up being ironic as Abby Trott's character has a crush on Ben Diskin's character in Aggretsuko, where Tara Platt's character will give Erica Mendez's character advice, and they all work at the same company, so it's like the Black Eagles got reincarnated as animals at an office building) and Lysithea with Ignatz.

 

Anyway, here's my favorite music of 2023 through the first 9 months:

 1.)   Separate Ways (Worlds Apart)-Daughtry feat. Lzzy Hale
2.)   Peace like a River-Dolly Parton, Dionne Warwick
3.)   Lose You-Sam Smith
4.)   Who We Love-Sam Smith, Ed Sheeran
5.)   This Is Why-Paramore
6.)   The News-Paramore
7.)   Running Out of Time-Paramore
8.)   I Finally Do-Erika Harlacher
9.)   You Are The Music (Live 5/16/1992)-Trapeze
10.)   Way Back to the Bone (Live 5/16/1992)-Trapeze
11.)   Coast to Coast (Live 5/16/1992)-Trapeze
12.)   Midnight Flyer (Live 5/16/1992)-Trapeze
13.)   Die For You (Remix)-The Weeknd, Ariana Grande
14.)   Still Alive-Demi Lovato
15.)   Heart Attack (Rock version)-Demi Lovato
16.)   Confident (Rock version)-Demi Lovato
17.)   Sorry Not Sorry (Rock version)-Demi Lovato, Slash
18.)   Skyscraper (Rock version)-Demi Lovato
19.)   La La Land (Rock version)-Demi Lovato
20.)   Give Your Heart a Break (Rock version)-Demi Lovato, Bert McCracken
21.)   SWINE-Demi Lovato
22.)   FLOWERS-Miley Cyrus
23.)   Thousand Miles-Miley Cyrus, Brandi Carlile
24.)   Violet Chemistry-Miley Cyrus
25.)   Muddy Feet-Miley Cyrus, Sia
26.)   Wildcard-Miley Cyrus
27.)   Wonder Woman-Miley Cyrus
28.)   Flowers (Demo)-Miley Cyrus
29.)   Used to be Young-Miley Cyrus
30.)   Out of that Truck-Carrie Underwood
31.)   Give Her That-Carrie Underwood
32.)   Drunk and Hungover-Carrie Underwood
33.)   Take Me Out-Carrie Underwood
34.)   She Don’t Know (Live)-Carrie Underwood
35.)   I Miss Strangers (Acoustic)-Death Cab For Cutie
36.)   I’ll Never Give Up On You (Acoustic)-Death Cab For Cutie
37.)   All-Star Jam-Metal Hall of fame All-Stars
38.)   Eye for an Eye-Rina Sawayama
39.)   Winner Takes All-Nita Strauss, Alice Cooper
40.)   Through the Noise-Nita Strauss, Lzzy Hale
41.)   METAL KINGDOM-BabyMetal
42.)   Divine Attack-Shingeki-BabyMetal
43.)   Mirror, Mirror-BabyMetal
44.)   MAYA-BabyMetal
45.)   Believing-BabyMetal
46.)   Monochrome (Piano version)-BabyMetal
47.)   The One (Unfinished version)-BabyMetal
48.)   METALI!-BabyMetal, Tom Morello
49.)   Everybody Needs Someone-Noah Cyrus, Vance Joy
50.)   Angel-Ian Hunter, Taylor Hawkins, Duff McKagan, Brad Whitford
51.)   The King of the Koopas-Brian Tyler
52.)   Peaches-Jack Black
53.)   Superstars-Brian Tyler
54.)   Neon Knights-Paul Gilbert
55.)   Kill the King-Paul Gilbert
56.)   Country Girl-Paul Gilbert
57.)   Man on the Silver Mountain-Paul Gilbert
58.)   Holy Diver-Paul Gilbert
59.)   Heaven and Hell-Paul Gilbert
60.)   Long Live Rock N Roll-Paul Gilbert
61.)   Lady Evil-Paul Gilbert
62.)   Little Wing-Jenn Ford
63.)   Gold Dust Woman-Jenn Ford
64.)   Nothing Compares to You-Jenn Ford
65.)   Whipping Post-Jenn Ford
66.)   Turn the Page-Jenn Ford
67.)   Hotel California-Jenn Ford
68.)   Black Hole Sun-Jenn Ford
69.)   Eagle Flight-Revolution Saints
70.)   Talking Like Strangers-Revolution Saints
71.)   Need Each Other-Revolution Saints
72.)   Set Yourself Free-Revolution Saints
73.)   Save it All-Revolution Saints
74.)   Heart Wants What It Wants-Bebe Rexha
75.)   Call On Me-Bebe Rexha
76.)   I’m Not High, I’m In Love-Bebe Rexha
77.)   I am-Bebe Rexha
78.)   Seasons-Bebe Rexha, Dolly Parton
79.)   If Only I-Loud Luxury, Two friends, Bebe Rexha
80.)   One in a Million-Bebe Rexha and David Guetta
81.)   Meant to Live (Our version)-Switchfoot
82.)   Peaches (Bowsette Version)-Cristina Vee
83.)   This is the Song-Duff McKagan
84.)   Pass You By-Duff McKagan
85.)   It Can’t Come Too Soon-Duff McKagan
86.)   Lighthouse-Duff McKagan
87.)   Longfeather-Duff McKagan
88.)   Kaleidoscope Jesus-Lauren Daigle
89.)   Salvation Mountain-Lauren Daigle, Gary Clark Jr.
90.)   Be Okay-Lauren Daigle
91.)   Moon River-Eric Clapton, Jeff Beck
92.)   Ain’t Enough Rocks-Brandy Clark, Derek Trucks
93.)   Dear Insecurity-Brandy Clark, Brandi Carlile
94.)   Northwest-Brandy Clark
95.)   Breakfast in Birmingham-Tanya Tucker, Brandi Carlile
96.)   Home-Brandi Carlile
97.)   Closer to fine-Brandi Carlile and Catherine Carlile
98.)   Damage Gets Done-Hozier, Brandi Carlile
99.)   Systematic Minds-Andrew Hagar
100.)   Rescued-Foo Fighters
101.)   Under You-Foo Fighters
102.)   But Here We Are-Foo Fighters
103.)   The Glass-Foo Fighters
104.)   Show Me How-Foo Fighters
105.)   Rest-Foo Fighters
106.)   If you’re Blue-Joan Jett and the Blackhearts
107.)   (Make The Music Go) Boom-Joan Jett and the Blackhearts
108.)   So Hyper (Live)-Grace McKagan
109.)   Checkmate (Live)-Grace McKagan
110.)   Jimmy (Looking Like Trash) (Live)-Grace McKagan
111.)   Surrender (Live)-Grace McKagan
112.)   Godzilla-Albert Bouchard, Kasim Sulton
113.)   Everybody knows Everything-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
114.)   Crash of Life-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
115.)   Torn Into Lies-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
116.)   Far Too Deep-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
117.)   Not Tonight-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
118.)   I Would Cry for Love-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
119.)   Find A Way-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
120.)   Revelations-Kim Petras
121.)   Minute-Kim Petras
122.)   Coconuts-Kim Petras
123.)   Adrift-Laura Bailey, Ashley Johnson
124.)   Challenging a Queen-Laura Bailey, Mary Elizabeth McGlynn
125.)   Cast A Spell-Laura Bailey, Allegra Clark, Rahul Kohli
126.)   Adrift (Clever version)-Laura Bailey, Ashley Johnson
127.)   Challenging a Queen (Clever version)-Laura Bailey, Mary Elizabeth McGlynn
128.)   Cast A Spell (Compassionate version)-Laura Bailey, Rahul Kohli, Allegra Clark, Janina Gavankar
129.)   Worthy (Bmblb pt. II)-Jeff Williams, Ariyel
130.)   I am a Huntress-Casey Lee Williams
131.)   Maybe That Girl is Enough-Jeff and Casey Lee Williams
132.)   Born to Raise Hell-Girlschool, Biff Byford, Duff McKagan, Phil Campbell
133.)   Another Celebration at the End of the World-Mammoth WVH
134.)   Plans-Firerose and Billy Ray Cyrus
135.)   Jumpin’ Jack Flash-George Lynch and Jeff Pilson
136.)   Come Together-Durga McBroom, Jackie Lomax, Snowy White
137.)   I Want You (She’s So Heavy)-Arthur Brown, Steve Stevens
138.)   You Never Give Me Your Money-Graham Bonnet, Rick Wakeman
139.)   Move-Idina Menzel
140.)   Dramatic-Idina Menzel
141.)   Paradise-Idina Menzel, Nile Rodgers
142.)   Make Me Hate Me-Idina Menzel
143.)   Royalty-Idina Menzel
144.)   Perhaps-Guns N Roses
145.)   The Skye Boat Song-Bear McCreary, Sinead O’Connor
146.)   Hell’s Bells (Live)-Hell’s Belles
147.)   If You Want Blood (You’ve Got It) (Live)-Hell’s Belles
148.)   Back in Black (Live)-Hell’s Belles
149.)   Have A Drink On Me (Live)-Hell’s Belles
150.)   You Shook Me All Night Long (Live)-Hell’s Belles
151.)   Rock Star Cheater-Hurricane
152.)   Under Pressure-Hurricane
153.)   Behind Your Shadow-Hurricane
154.)   Innocent Girl-Hurricane
155.)   Don’t Change Your Love-Hurricane
156.)   I’m on to You-Hurricane
157.)   Disconnected-Hurricane
158.)   Good Hearted Woman-Willie Nelson
159.)   Michelle-Tish Melton
160.)   What About Love?-Firefall
161.)   Simple Man-Firefall
162.)   Nervous-Black Stone Cherry
163.)   When the Pain Comes-Black Stone Cherry
164.)   Smile, World-Black Stone Cherry
165.)   The Mess You Made-Black Stone Cherry
166.)   Not Afraid-Black Stone Cherry
167.)   Here’s to the Hopeless-Black Stone Cherry
168.)   What’s Love Got To Do With It?-Black Stone Cherry
169.)   Scars in Heaven-Casting Crowns, Amy Grant
170.)   Voice of Truth-Casting Crowns, Steven Curtis Chapman
171.)   World on Fire-Dolly Parton
172.)   We Are The Champions/We Will Rock You-Dolly Parton
173.)   Bygones-Dolly Parton, Rob Halford, John 5, Nikki Sixx
174.)   Let it Be-Dolly Parton, Paul McCartney, Ringo Starr, Peter Frampton, Mick Fleetwood

Third Quarter wrap-up

     I think I'm entering a new phase of my life.  I've spent years doing things that I think others want me to do, buying movies, games, watching shows and getting involved in entertainment that ultimately didn't really pay off. There's not going to be another game with Edelgard or Tara Platt as Mitsuru and/or Elizabeth, there likely will not be a return of Laura Bailey as Rise Kujikawa or Abby Trott as Annette, I don't like the idea of buying huge story arcs to hear Colleen Clinkenbeard as Erza Scarlet, nor a Netflix account to hear her as Elsie Crimson and Tara as Ms. Washimi and Abby as Inui, and I doubt Stray Gods will get a sequel and I don't know how long it'll be until Team RWBY gets to Menagerie. It is also exceedingly depressing to write that paragraph and know so few of my friends or family members know what I'm talking about, that I might as well be typing gibberish in Italian for all they know.

 

    Godzilla; Minus One and Monarch; Legacy of Monsters both look good, but I keep thinking Minus One is just a remake without the stellar Ifukube music (meaning it won't be as stunning) and Legacy of Monsters is only on Apple, so I won't be able to see it. Still, both hold more promise that Adam Wingard's "Godzilla x Kong; The New Empire" film, due out in April, which seems to be made to cash in on the memes that make Godzilla and Kong "Butch and Sundance" against all the kaiju in history, ignoring that Godzilla had around 30 movies for 65 years and his most common sidekicks where Mothra, Anguirus and Rodan, each of which could carry their own movie. But, of course, WB is going where they think the money will be, which is why they're handling their next superhero movie the way they are, making many irate.

 

    Honestly, if Twitter doesn't die by the end of this year, I'm thinking of quitting. I think my mood disorders caused me to get muted by Tara Platt, Sarah McKnight and Yuri Lowenthal, the best semi-famous people I know, and I don't blame them, but it means I can't get through to describe my feelings on my good days. Maybe it's for the best, it feels stupid to keep the account just to see them, Laura Bailey, Abby Trott, Colleen Clinkenbeard and Lutheran rapper Agape. My family left some time ago and I'm paranoid of the "Eddie rules, Randy Rhoads drools," "A Christian can't be an LGBTQ+ rights advocate" and "You can't like Rob Halford, David Coverdale, Glenn Hughes, Geoff Tate, Chris Cornell, Brandi Carlile and Miley Cyrus, you [censored]!" people. I'll be thinking about it, but if I deactivate by year's end, you'll know why.

 

Next month is Halloween, and here's both renditions of my playlist:

 Halloween 2023:
1.) Bark at the Moon-Ozzy Osbourne
2.) Black Sabbath-Black Sabbath
3.) Paranoid-Black Sabbath
4.) Methademic-Black Sabbath
5.) Into the Void-Black Sabbath
6.) Crazy Train (Live)-Ozzy Osbourne
7.) Lady Evil-Black Sabbath
8.) Exciter-Judas Priest
9.) Eat Me-Ozzy Osbourne
10.) Trashed-Black Sabbath
11.) Born to Raise Hell-Girlschool, Biff Byford, Duff McKagan, Phil Campbell
12.) Guardians/Rising from Ruins-Judas Priest
13.) End of the Beginning-Black Sabbath
14.) Bygones-Dolly Parton, Rob Halford, Nikki Sixx, John 5
15.) Methademic (Live)-Black Sabbath*
16.) Hell-Bent for Leather-Judas Priest
17.) Patient Number 9-Ozzy Osbourne, Jeff Beck
18.) Through the Noise-Nita Strauss, Lzzy Hale
19.) End of the Beginning (Live)-Black Sabbath*
20.) Immortal-Ozzy Osbourne, Mike McCready
21.) Ace of Spades-Motorhead
22.) Mistreated (Live 1977)-Rainbow
23.) Neon Knights-Black Sabbath
24.) The Last in Line-Tenacious D
25.) Breaking the Law (Live 2015)-Judas Priest
26.) Bark at the Moon-Adrian Conner
27.) Into the Void (Sealth) (Live)-Soundgarden
28.) Fly On The Wall (Live)-Miley Cyrus
29.) METALI!-BabyMetal, Tom Morello
30.) Parasite-Ozzy Osbourne, Zakk Wylde
31.) Winner Takes All-Nita Strauss, Alice Cooper
32.) Sorry (Not Sorry)-Demi Lovato, Slash
33.) Mr. Darkness-Ozzy Osbourne, Zakk Wylde
34.) Born to Raise Hell-Motorhead
35.) Neon Knights-Paul Gilbert
36.) Necromancer-Judas Priest
37.) Enter Sandman-Motorhead
38.) Hot Line-Black Sabbath
39.) The Fallen-Black Sabbath*
40.) Kill the King-Paul Gilbert
41.) Starbreaker-Judas Priest
42.) Stormbringer (Live 1975)-Deep Purple
43.) Vincent Price (Live 2014)-Deep Purple
44.) Iron Man (Live 1983)-Black Sabbath*
45.) Separate Ways-Daughtry, Lzzy Hale
46.) Man on the Silver Mountain-Paul Gilbert
47.) Lady Evil-Paul Gilbert
48.) NIB (Live 2013)-Black Sabbath
49.) This is Mongol-The HU
50.) Rainbow in the Dark-Dio
51.) Iron Man (Live 2017)-Black Sabbath
52.) Degradation Rules-Ozzy Osbourne, Tony Iommi
53.) Yuve Yuve Yu-The HU
54.) Divine Attack-Shingeki-BabyMetal
55.) Nothing Else Matters-Miley Cyrus, Andrew Watt, Robert Trujillo, Elton John, Yo-Yo Ma, Chad Smith
56.) 4th of July (Live 2013)-Soundgarden
57.) Into the Void (Live 2017)-Black Sabbath
58.) Paranoid (Live 1983)-Black Sabbath
59.) Stormbringer-Whitesnake (will be added to Spotify after album release 10/13)
60.) Burn (Live)-The Dead Daisies
61.) Darkside Blues-Ozzy Osbourne
62.) Sabbath Bloody Sabbath/Paranoid (Live)-Black Sabbath
*-Not on Spotify

Here's my favorites of the year so far:

2023 favorites:
1.) Separate Ways (Worlds Apart)-Daughtry feat. Lzzy Hale
2.) Peace like a River-Dolly Parton, Dionne Warwick
3.) Lose You-Sam Smith
4.) Who We Love-Sam Smith, Ed Sheeran
5.) This Is Why-Paramore
6.) The News-Paramore
7.) Running Out of Time-Paramore
8.) I Finally Do-Erika Harlacher
9.) You Are The Music (Live 5/16/1992)-Trapeze
10.) Way Back to the Bone (Live 5/16/1992)-Trapeze
11.) Coast to Coast (Live 5/16/1992)-Trapeze
12.) Midnight Flyer (Live 5/16/1992)-Trapeze
13.) Die For You (Remix)-The Weeknd, Ariana Grande
14.) Still Alive-Demi Lovato
15.) Heart Attack (Rock version)-Demi Lovato
16.) Confident (Rock version)-Demi Lovato
17.) Sorry Not Sorry (Rock version)-Demi Lovato, Slash
18.) Skyscraper (Rock version)-Demi Lovato
19.) La La Land (Rock version)-Demi Lovato
20.) Give Your Heart a Break (Rock version)-Demi Lovato, Bert McCracken
21.) SWINE-Demi Lovato
22.) FLOWERS-Miley Cyrus
23.) Thousand Miles-Miley Cyrus, Brandi Carlile
24.) Violet Chemistry-Miley Cyrus
25.) Muddy Feet-Miley Cyrus, Sia
26.) Wildcard-Miley Cyrus
27.) Wonder Woman-Miley Cyrus
28.) Flowers (Demo)-Miley Cyrus
29.) Used to be Young-Miley Cyrus
30.) Out of that Truck-Carrie Underwood
31.) Give Her That-Carrie Underwood
32.) Drunk and Hungover-Carrie Underwood
33.) Take Me Out-Carrie Underwood
34.) She Don’t Know (Live)-Carrie Underwood
35.) I Miss Strangers (Acoustic)-Death Cab For Cutie
36.) I’ll Never Give Up On You (Acoustic)-Death Cab For Cutie
37.) All-Star Jam-Metal Hall of fame All-Stars
38.) Eye for an Eye-Rina Sawayama
39.) Winner Takes All-Nita Strauss, Alice Cooper
40.) Through the Noise-Nita Strauss, Lzzy Hale
41.) METAL KINGDOM-BabyMetal
42.) Divine Attack-Shingeki-BabyMetal
43.) Mirror, Mirror-BabyMetal
44.) MAYA-BabyMetal
45.) Believing-BabyMetal
46.) Monochrome (Piano version)-BabyMetal
47.) The One (Unfinished version)-BabyMetal
48.) METALI!-BabyMetal, Tom Morello
49.) Everybody Needs Someone-Noah Cyrus, Vance Joy
50.) Angel-Ian Hunter, Taylor Hawkins, Duff McKagan, Brad Whitford
51.) The King of the Koopas-Brian Tyler
52.) Peaches-Jack Black
53.) Superstars-Brian Tyler
54.) Neon Knights-Paul Gilbert
55.) Kill the King-Paul Gilbert
56.) Country Girl-Paul Gilbert
57.) Man on the Silver Mountain-Paul Gilbert
58.) Holy Diver-Paul Gilbert
59.) Heaven and Hell-Paul Gilbert
60.) Long Live Rock N Roll-Paul Gilbert
61.) Lady Evil-Paul Gilbert
62.) Little Wing-Jenn Ford
63.) Gold Dust Woman-Jenn Ford
64.) Nothing Compares to You-Jenn Ford
65.) Whipping Post-Jenn Ford
66.) Turn the Page-Jenn Ford
67.) Hotel California-Jenn Ford
68.) Black Hole Sun-Jenn Ford
69.) Eagle Flight-Revolution Saints
70.) Talking Like Strangers-Revolution Saints
71.) Need Each Other-Revolution Saints
72.) Set Yourself Free-Revolution Saints
73.) Save it All-Revolution Saints
74.) Heart Wants What It Wants-Bebe Rexha
75.) Call On Me-Bebe Rexha
76.) I’m Not High, I’m In Love-Bebe Rexha
77.) I am-Bebe Rexha
78.) Seasons-Bebe Rexha, Dolly Parton
79.) If Only I-Loud Luxury, Two friends, Bebe Rexha
80.) One in a Million-Bebe Rexha and David Guetta
81.) Meant to Live (Our version)-Switchfoot
82.) Peaches (Bowsette Version)-Cristina Vee
83.) This is the Song-Duff McKagan
84.) Pass You By-Duff McKagan
85.) It Can’t Come Too Soon-Duff McKagan
86.) Lighthouse-Duff McKagan
87.) Longfeather-Duff McKagan
88.) Kaleidoscope Jesus-Lauren Daigle
89.) Salvation Mountain-Lauren Daigle, Gary Clark Jr.
90.) Be Okay-Lauren Daigle
91.) Moon River-Eric Clapton, Jeff Beck
92.) Ain’t Enough Rocks-Brandy Clark, Derek Trucks
93.) Dear Insecurity-Brandy Clark, Brandi Carlile
94.) Northwest-Brandy Clark
95.) Breakfast in Birmingham-Tanya Tucker, Brandi Carlile
96.) Home-Brandi Carlile
97.) Closer to fine-Brandi Carlile and Catherine Carlile
98.) Damage Gets Done-Hozier, Brandi Carlile
99.) Systematic Minds-Andrew Hagar
100.) Rescued-Foo Fighters
101.) Under You-Foo Fighters
102.) But Here We Are-Foo Fighters
103.) The Glass-Foo Fighters
104.) Show Me How-Foo Fighters
105.) Rest-Foo Fighters
106.) If you’re Blue-Joan Jett and the Blackhearts
107.) (Make The Music Go) Boom-Joan Jett and the Blackhearts
108.) So Hyper (Live)-Grace McKagan
109.) Checkmate (Live)-Grace McKagan
110.) Jimmy (Looking Like Trash) (Live)-Grace McKagan
111.) Surrender (Live)-Grace McKagan
112.) Godzilla-Albert Bouchard, Kasim Sulton
113.) Everybody knows Everything-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
114.) Crash of Life-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
115.) Torn Into Lies-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
116.) Far Too Deep-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
117.) Not Tonight-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
118.) I Would Cry for Love-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
119.) Find A Way-Joel Hoekstra’s 13
120.) Revelations-Kim Petras
121.) Minute-Kim Petras
122.) Coconuts-Kim Petras
123.) Adrift-Laura Bailey, Ashley Johnson
124.) Challenging a Queen-Laura Bailey, Mary Elizabeth McGlynn
125.) Cast A Spell-Laura Bailey, Allegra Clark, Rahul Kohli
126.) Adrift (Clever version)-Laura Bailey, Ashley Johnson
127.) Challenging a Queen (Clever version)-Laura Bailey, Mary Elizabeth McGlynn
128.) Worthy (Bmblb pt. II)-Jeff Williams, Ariyel
129.) I am a Huntress-Casey Lee Williams
130.) Maybe That Girl is Enough-Jeff and Casey Lee Williams
131.) Born to Raise Hell-Girlschool, Biff Byford, Duff McKagan, Phil Campbell
132.) Another Celebration at the End of the World-Mammoth WVH
133.) Plans-Firerose and Billy Ray Cyrus
134.) Jumpin’ Jack Flash-George Lynch and Jeff Pilson
135.) Come Together-Durga McBroom, Jackie Lomax, Snowy White
136.) I Want You (She’s So Heavy)-Arthur Brown, Steve Stevens
137.) You Never Give Me Your Money-Graham Bonnet, Rick Wakeman
138.) Move-Idina Menzel
139.) Dramatic-Idina Menzel
140.) Paradise-Idina Menzel, Nile Rodgers
141.) Make Me Hate Me-Idina Menzel
142.) Royalty-Idina Menzel
143.) Perhaps-Guns N Roses
144.) The Skye Boat Song-Bear McCreary, Sinead O’Connor
145.) Voice of Truth-Casting Crowns, Steven Curtis Chapman
146.) Hell’s Bells (Live)-Hell’s Belles
147.) If You Want Blood (You’ve Got It) (Live)-Hell’s Belles
148.) Back in Black (Live)-Hell’s Belles
149.) Have A Drink On Me (Live)-Hell’s Belles
150.) You Shook Me All Night Long (Live)-Hell’s Belles
151.) Rock Star Cheater-Hurricane
152.) Under Pressure-Hurricane
153.) Behind Your Shadow-Hurricane
154.) Innocent Girl-Hurricane
155.) Don’t Change Your Love-Hurricane
156.) I’m on to You-Hurricane
157.) Disconnected-Hurricane
158.) Good Hearted Woman-Willie Nelson
159.) Michelle-Tish Melton
160.) Simple Man-Firefall
161.) World on Fire-Dolly Parton
162.) We Are The Champions/We Will Rock You-Dolly Parton
163.) Bygones-Dolly Parton, Rob Halford, John 5, Nikki Sixx
164.) Let it Be-Dolly Parton, Paul McCartney, Ringo Starr, Peter Frampton, Mick Fleetwood

Social Media Emotions

 

               It’s really hard to say you get therapy from Tara Platt’s Twitter because, to me, regular people will think you’re saying something along the lines of “I talk to Gorvax, the blob-man of Pluto.”  It gets REALLY hard, like almost impossible, when you’ve seen people on DeviantArt draw Mitsuru and Edelgard getting murdered, in Hell and paraplegic, without a wheelchair, scheduled to be raped daily by a stranger for the rest of their lives with no chance for escape and I wish that were an exaggeration.  I don’t know how people with such sick minds get any art skills beyond stick figures.  I hate Rhea in that game for reminding me of the horrible people in my personal life who made me leave my second major Church in tears due to their aggressive legalism, but so long as they don’t press us, we’re fine with them.  The demands for bars and irons come when they antagonize, terrorize and pressure us, like they’re God the potter and we’re the clay, but instead of compassion, they want to forge us in everything, including all the hideous prejudice, condemnation and violence in their souls.  But arrests is enough, death if they try to kill us trying to arrest them as a last resort is ENOUGH, no excessive punishment.  I honestly liked most in that game to sit down at tea parties with Edelgard and Annette, easing the emperor from her horrific childhood and spending time with the fun “cinnamon roll” of a woman.  They both also like sweets, cats and the view from the bridge, and Tara and Abby were also both in Aggretsuko in similar roles to Three Houses if you recruit Annette and put her and Caspar together, except in a company in an office building, not an empire/army and without a war.  I really like the humanity Yuri brings to Yosuke, Laura brings to Rise and Grace, Tara brings to Kali, Mitsuru and Edelgard, Colleen brings to Erza and Abby brings to Annette, and they share that humanity online.  It’s going to sting when it’s reduced to videos and memories, not organic interactions, and I’m not sure how to deal with that.  My apartment complex has people with serious mental demons (talk to themselves and answer, not going to try to diagnose), don’t speak my language (they seem nice), aggressive political beliefs against me and yeah, some people I’d call normal, but I don’t run into them that much.  I’d invite people over, but it’s small and easy to make a mess in.  Plus, I’m not sure I own much many people would enjoy partaking in.  I have movies, but are they the right kind?  I have games, but only 1 Switch controller.

 

               I do not appreciate YouTube crapping all over one of my favorite bold musicians because she had difficulty adequately describing in less than a minute the emotions when a bold, strong artist she admired criticized her so harshly, yet she wants to bury the hatchet because that artist is dead now.  I’m not completely over learning that Michael Sweet of Stryper would not be “Always There for You” in 2015-2016 unless you were in his box, which he would stretch for you if you were a straight, male Republican presidential candidate, not a pansexual, gender-fluid Democrat singer.  I’m not completely over learning so many people in sitcoms I watched growing up about togetherness will toss you to the curb if they think you’re “bad,” rather than engage in discourse and say, “hey, I’m worried.”  So, forgive me if I side with her because I don’t like such hypocritical, partisan BS on display to score points with a “fanbase” or “brand” rather than acting like what I think God would act like; gentle and open to communication, willing to learn the truth and the motivation, rather than a condemning, punitive monster!

 

 I often see myself as a fool who got obsessed with Britney Spears, Miley Cyrus, Michael Sweet and Edelgard/Tara Platt because he kept thinking they’d have keys to something he thought he was missing.  That something was confidence, and while they did have it, they couldn’t teach it because they were born with it, so they didn’t know what it was to lack it.  They didn’t know what it was to be paralyzed with second-guesses, uncertainty…a bad case of nerves, the terror that their relatives would scream at them over anything.  They were all fortunate; their Dads didn’t take the money in the account shared with their Moms and spend it on silly things without permission, then lie about it and make vacation plans behind the Moms’ back.  This stressed Mom out and she screamed, she screamed at everyone and he punched holes in the wall, but it ended as they separated and filed the papers.  It was a painful render, but a needed one.  I detest a lack of control, it reminds me of then, which is why I work so hard, so aggressively, even though the results don’t always work.  I want to fix the country, make it so no African-American worries while driving, no LGBTQ+ person worries at a club or ordering a wedding cake…and I can’t.  I can’t make those simple acts as good for them as they are for my family and I.  So, I keep thinking I’m a failure and when I slip up and accidentally say something offensive to a woman or minority, I REALLY feel like a monster.  My emotions are hard to control with my mood disorders; they call it mental illness, but I don’t bark in public (or private, for that matter) just…you insult me, I’ll need to process that out loud and possibly yell about it before it leaves my system.  The internet can be Hell in that regard, because some people dedicate their entire presence to being the worst they can be.  I’d rather just share positive, because I know negativity doesn’t do anything but hurt, and if you’ve hurt, why’d you make someone else feel the same?  I don’t understand the concept of hurt people can “take.”  You can handle pain alone, but if you can help but don’t for no reason, that’s selfish.  But I guess it’s time to show the ugly past and hope that inspires a better future, especially since there may be less ways to show soon.

 

Bonus Musical Quirk about me:

 -My likely favorite year of music is 1975, with my top 10 songs probably “Saturday Night Special”-Lynyrd Skynyrd, “Godzilla Arrives”-Akira Ifukube, “Railroad Song (Live at Winterland)”-Lynyrd Skynyrd, “Bohemian Rhapsody”-Queen, “You Keep On Moving”-Deep Purple, “Landslide”-Fleetwood Mac, “Ten Years Gone”-Led Zeppelin, “Rhiannon”- Fleetwood Mac “In My Time of Dying”-Led Zeppelin and “Hole in the Sky” by Black Sabbath.

Another emotional exorcism

     People who've seen my Facebook and Twitter may have noticed I was falling apart a bit more than usual lately.  That's because the pharmacy lost my phone number and I wasn't aware my medication was ready until I was out.  I gave them my number again and hopefully it'll work this time, but that doesn't change some feelings I do have and have been hiding;

-Social Media, especially DeviantArt and YouTube, is absolutely horrible right now.  People say Twitter is bad, and it is, Musk has empowered trolls and the whole thing is going to come crashing down, probably before 2024, but at least there, you can choose who you're exposed to.  You go to the front page of those two, it's a stockpile of crap memes overriding any and all substance you're looking for.  I cussed out YouTube this week because I was trying to find Kiryu and Godzilla's themes from Godzilla Against MechaGodzilla, but couldn't because of all the Godzilla vs. Kong memes and shitposting.  (apologies for the language, but the videos look stupid from the title and thumbnail alone, they're like the kaiju equivalent to "Is Paul McCartney really dead?")

 -Which brings me to this continuation, memes are ruining the entertainment industry and truth.  Because Godzilla vs. Kong was such a meme, the next one has both of them in it again.  Godzilla had 30 films for 65 years (more or less) and didn't need to be "Butch and Sundance" with King Kong.  I listed my top 10 kaiju on Twitter and some BUTT asked "what about Kong?"  You internet types ruined Kong, along with zombies, vampires and pirates.  And don't get me started on them making a "Baby Shark" movie.  2 hours, $250 million on a thing that makes you chuckle for 5 seconds.

-There are good points to the internet, but it's hard to share them because it doesn't feel like enough.  There's great performances on YouTube from Lynyrd Skynyrd, Heart, Fleetwood Mac and Black Sabbath on the Old Grey Whistle Test, Don Kirshner's Rock Concert and the Midnight Special, which makes me think the 1970s may not have been the greatest time ever, but it must've been nice to have 13 channels and at least one had one live rock concert a week that you didn't need to leave the house for.  Miley Cyrus' performances in Glastonbury and in the videos for "Don't Call Me Angel," "Say Hello 2 Heaven," "Nothing Else Matters" and "Used to Be Young" capture a Steven Tyler-Robert Plant energy not seen on stage since that time, and if she were male, she'd go over better with more people.  And Tara Platt and Yuri Lowenthal have a TEDx talk about the Hero's Journey and applying that to your own life and current situation that was really good.  The issue I really have with me liking those two, why I'm hesitant and embarrassed to bring them up, is, though they're personal superheroes, it doesn't feel like it makes any difference if my family are still the only ones who react positively.  What good is it to get help and feel good if you only hear your two aunts, your sister-in-law and your dad's wife saying "Yeah" and everyone else is grumbling about things you can't help them with; not because you don't want to, but because you lack the ability to change the world and society in such a way.  

 -I have opinions about music that seem weird to me because of what's more popular and where I'm from, like;

-I like Robert Plant's version of "Hey Joe" with the Band of Joy pre-Led Zeppelin better than Jimi Hendrix's.

-I like Deep Purple Mark III and Mark IV better than Mark II.  (Happy Birthday, David Coverdale)

-I like Randy Rhoads better than Eddie Van Halen, though it's probably mostly that Randy died at 25 and had more visible joy and ecstasy on his face during the Rochester 1981 "Crazy Train" outro than I've seen on Eddie in all the videos put together.

-I really think Led Zeppelin should clean up the video and audio of the Kingdome performances of "Ten Years Gone," "Achilles Last Stand" and "Stairway to Heaven" for professional release.  I want to share those without shame, the three-necked instrument, the lunging between Plant and Page, Page dropping in and out in the solo.

This all came out right now. Do I have something here?

 

It’s too hard to carry all this anymore.  I hate saying these words, but I need to, because I can’t get past it.  I’ve seen art submitted for the masses of men raping and impregnating lesbians and some people liked it.  Sure, it was a small number, but still, people LIKED it, not one person, not nobody, multiple people liked a violating act of copulation that had horrible after effects that would last the entirety of that person’s life.  This is how sick people can be, this is who trolls allow themselves to be, gross, horrible monstrous people so bad you don’t know how to talk.  I can’t walk sometimes because it’s too awful to think these people took the time to do this and decided the world should see it.  Like all acts like this; pedophilia, incest, rape, abuse, it’s so gross, all I can this is “how could you do this.”  And they do this to heroines, too, some of the strongest women I know. 

 

All I try to do in public, on the internet, is say no to this, say no to the monster, say no to the horror and I can’t say no hard enough.  I try to build up people with the little I know, but the world seems rigged against this and my mouth and hands can’t speak right.  I read Miley Cyrus’ shock and pain at trolls against her and her boldness, her “screw it, I’m going to do this even though lots will say ‘you’re messing with the rock gods, you’re unqualified, you’re a poseur, you aren’t good enough’ and though it may not be objectively good, I will have fun” attitude.  I show that attitude so rarely, thinking calculation ensures security, but I want the attitude of choosing to play Paranoid in Guitar Hero though I’m no guitarist all the time, that “I don’t CARE if I stink at this, I will have a good time.”  It’s so hard to do that, even without mood disorders.

 

But also, their knock you down attitude is horribly toxic and it’s in the government, which makes it almost unlivable.  I will always blame Chris Cornell’s suicide on the alcohol making the dangerous politics unleashed in 2016 too brutal to cope with.  I’ve heard Laura Bailey, a sweet (though also a powerful cusser) lady who crafted the nicest character I knew at the time, Rise Kujikawa, with a script and her voice, was assaulted so bad for playing a transgender character who looks so strong and in need of hugs that Matthew Mercer had to intervene.  The attack on Ukraine and the SCOTUS hate that June hurt Tara Platt so much, she tried to explain scientifically why it was nonsense in a hope that people who probably buy that ‘calculate the Earth’s age through the lineage in Luke’ would somehow understand.  I’ve had communion with such people, they threw out science when Charles Darwin got published, failing to understand that the lineage is Luke explaining Jesus wasn’t just made by God as a God, but as a human after a long legacy of good and bad people the way they would know how, an explanation that He is God and man.  But the deepest cut came from Abby Trott’s tweet, it hit with the impact of a deeply hurt, crying teenager running up and slamming her door after her uncle said “no, you’re not a lesbian and you don’t like Miley Cyrus, that’s Satan talking,” though her parents tried to avoid this coming up.  I once angrily opposed this right outside rape.  But I learned Gibbs’ rule 51 from NCIS; Sometimes, you’re wrong.

 

That stupid algorithm and time, it was bad before the site was bought; I swear only 1/5^th of the fun or tender art of Edelgard I tweeted visibly made it to Tara and now it feels worse.  Of course, sometimes, it probably wasn’t what she thought or felt either.  Right now, I’m mostly mad because of the following event; she’s a professional, intelligent actress, I’m not a friend, just a fan, but I can guess things about people and try to read them based on how they present themselves on social media.  An acting performance that I was jolted back into remembering more prominently due to Laura Bailey and Ashley Johnson’s “Adrift” in Stray Gods was my classmate Jordan Phelps playing Jean Valjean in “Les Miserables” at my High School, Bellingham High School, a year after I graduated, the play was in 2008.  I am incredibly detail-oriented.  He wasn’t just good by High School acting standards.  He was GOOD, he brought to life a pain-wracked character abused by the letter of the law who is trying to do the morally right thing, though it means he is hounded by Javert, who remembers him from prison, and has to be part of battle.  He was so good I don’t want to see another rendition of the play, not even Hugh Jackman and Anne Hathaway, out of anxiety that his performance would be diluted.  The conflict between “letter of the law” people and moral people is a struggle Tara played as Edelgard, who reminds me of Valjean, she broke the rules and ended up doing things she clearly tells you she hates and only does because no other option exists.  An additional thing that is a little trivial in the game’s story, but resonates with me because no one else told this story; Edelgard is openly bisexual and possibly a lesbian.  She probably could end up with Caspar or Ferdinand based on their relationships (Caspar embodies Edelgard’s vision of success through effort and Ferdinand’s boldness and assurance in himself works well with Edelgard being the likely “woman rolling her eyes” behind the successful man as “Bruce Almighty” phrased it), but definitely flirts with Dorothea and Lysithea and her adoration of Byleth hits harder if you choose to be a woman.  If you do that, it takes on an aspect of romance no one else has told; the fact that Nintendo animated a scene where Edelgard cradles Byleth, weeping, thinking she is dead, then Sothis leaves Byleth, she awakens and hugs her, is a scene I think the LGBTQ+ community needs after all the assault they’ve been through.  It especially hits hard because my brain thinks it shouldn’t hit like it does; when I played it, Tara had been married to Yuri Lowenthal, a man, for almost 20 years and I keep thinking she was given a sheet of paper on a music stand that said “EDELGARD CRIES” or “EDELGARD: [cries]” and she sounds like her chest has been ripped out.  Voice acting wise, Laura Bailey made me feel the same when Rise Kujikawa cries in the 8 rank of her relationship in Persona 4, the desire to hug this person because they hurt so much.  This is all relevant because Jordan Phelps was probably the first openly gay man my Mom the choir teacher knew.  She learned from him how to be better to them all (and that wasn’t easy, I know my Grandparents, I wouldn’t call them homophobic, but more “quick to stereotype and judge” because their own lives had limited their experience and society reinforced these stereotypes and judgements by not condemning them).  I don’t think Tara saw the clip of Jordan because Twitter was broken before it was bought and now it’s that plus empowered trolls.

 

Around 2008, I saw “The Laramie Project” at Whatcom Community College, learning about how horrific Matthew Shepard was killed, that no Christian truly stood by him in the play, and it hurt like Hell itself.  I swore to help and it cost me a Church, it made June 12^th permanently stand on my calendar and it led me to side with Edelgard as the internet called her a woman Hitler, an extremist who deserved death.  And I don’t regret it, because it feels more God than anything they’ve said or any law or ruling they passed.