There has been a lot of stress for me in the last 2 weeks, but it's been hard to phrase it. The big thing that stresses me out is Europe is almost ready to go to war with America based on the emails I've read; with a French submarine docked in Ontario in case Canada gets invaded and them demanding the Statue of Liberty back. I don't know how to handle this because I am the sort of person who worries about being thought of as prejudiced, while this cult is willing to cut off anyone who disagrees with them even slightly. They claim religion, but that isn't how I was raised to think Jesus is. There is a lot of hurt and anger and it overwhelms me, so I try to hide on BlueSky, but I get a lot of posts about the ongoing SAG strike against interactive media because 7 companies want the ability to mine their voice clips and create programs to replace them. It actually makes me wonder if I should delete my "Great Voice Acting" playlist, because it could be a smorgasbord for the programs they are trying to invest in.
On the other hand, seeing videos from "Date Everything" and Abby Trott's performance as Momo Ayase in DanDaDan are highlights of my current life, plus it's where I can remember Annette and Edelgard's warmth towards the protagonist of Fire Emblem; Three Houses. Living alone, especially in these times, makes me crave reminders that good people who care about people like me still exist and haven't been erased. I also share music and clips from Women for Women's History Month on BlueSky, especially Heart, Stevie Nicks, Miley Cyrus and Ariana Grande, as well as baseball highlights from the Spring Training of the day. Right now, the Dodgers and Cubs are playing the season opener in Tokyo, which features Yoshinobu Yamamoto and Shota Imanaga pitching, the first time 2 Japanese pitchers start an MLB opener and the first time they start for the MLB in Japan. I got a Seattle Mariners LGBTQ+ Pride cap off eBay for Pride Night against the Baltimore Orioles and my first concert of the year is Bit Brigade at the Wild Buffalo, performing music from Super Mario World and F-Zero. I still have 8 pre-orders left on Amazon, and I found out that blocking the website is harder than I thought; I browse their upcoming CDs to chill and see what music is heading our way and without it, I went to an art website where I found corrective rape and erasure art against the LGBTQ+ community.
The state of online art is truly sad to me when I look back on pieces 20 years ago. Then, people had fun making art, and their joy made you want to try out Final Fantasy games that weren't on Nintendo systems at the time. Now, I'm sick of all the memes, Sonic fanart and bids to be "internet famous" without any work by using image generation. Also, 20 years ago, I don't recall seeing the amount of art produced in hatred that there is today. Famous people are saying "don't put me in AI images" and they do anyway. I miss the Stone of Adventure; a cheesecake website that made me interested in Final Fantasy VII and original characters while also producing more "all-acceptable" fanart of Link from Wind Waker and Starfire and Raven from Teen Titans. Now, it's just generated imagery of Black Widow and Sonic the Hedgehog and hate art on Yang Xiao Long from RWBY for being a lesbian. And don't get me started on the "react" memes.
New albums are coming out soon from Elton John with Brandi Carlile, Billy Idol and Don Felder, which I'm looking forward to. This Thursday night, Rush will release a box set celebrating 50 years of their existence, and I've been buying, playing and sharing Rush to attempt to show support for Canada. At some point this year, Miley Cyrus plans to release a visual album, and I'm not sure how that will work, if it'll be on DVD and BluRay, but she tends to produce quality work.
I want to believe all the current news crap is temporary and we'll go back to "normal" in 2029, but I have so much anxiety that this is how my life is to be until either I die or the Second Coming happens and I don't know which will happen first or when. I need more relaxation to dive into, and that is hard when my mind loops bad news and bad thoughts like a tape. I do so much online and it doesn't feel like enough. I spend a lot of time crying and just wishing the hurt will go away. I wish I had access to that human warmth Tara Platt and Abby Trott generate as their Fire Emblem characters all the time, the closest I get is Church, and that's only once a week, I often find myself forgetting the sermon in the stress of life. That's all where I am right now, and I hope this was informative if nothing else.
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