After rest and a birthday, I must admit, I don’t hate Twitter, I’m just scared and confused by adulthood. I’m not sure what to do, I feel I sabotaged my therapy over 10 years ago by acting more ready for the world than I was. My Dad’s family has problems with addictive behavior, gambling, alcoholism and the like, and mine seems to be the internet because of my loneliness in this apartment where it seems few, if any, share my values. This causes me to hate it because I don’t have control over it like other things in life. However, I don’t want to give it up because Twitter has nice people such as Tara Platt, Jeannie Tirado, Sarah McKnight, Abby Trott, Laura Post, Laura Bailey and Matthew Mercer, as well as music news and Facebook has my family. Honestly, I wish I could find something outside the old websites I've been checking for over a decade now, aside from those two, most are falling into a state where opinions are ruled by angry, snobbish people or children who seem too young to use the internet. Toho Kingdom is a shadow of what it used to be, as are most places that aren’t social media pages, and I miss the identity of websites that weren’t Facebook or Twitter pages that were someone’s self-made fan-site of their favorite subject with loads of trivia and information.
My favorite music released last week was Dolly Parton’s “World on fire,” (the album feels like a dream come true with Miley Cyrus, Brandi Carlile, Rob Halford, Ringo Starr, Paul McCartney and Ronnie Van Zant, Gary Rossington and Artimus Pyle all guest-starring) Duff McKagan’s “This Is The Song” and Cristina Vee’s cover of Jack Black’s “Peaches.” BabyMetal also had a couple good acoustic tracks. This week’s “Torn into Lies” by Joel Hoekstra’s 13 is so far my favorite track, followed by Def Leppard’s orchestral rendition of “When Love and Hate Collide,” though both were technically released on my Birthday, so that influenced matters. The song I’m looking forward to the most tonight is Brandy Clark’s “Dear Insecurity” with Brandi Carlile, both are named Brandy/I, are from Western Washington, and are lesbians, though Brandi is married to Catherine Shepard. Brandi apparently produced the album, so I’ll have to listen to the whole thing, but their last duet was one of my favorite songs of 2020. Neal Schon is also releasing an album with Marco Mendoza, Deen Castronovo and Gregg Rolie, where they perform Journey classics, obscure songs and even some Santana tracks, which I’m also looking forward to. I’m also planning on checking out Kesha, Alcatrazz and Sweet and Lynch, since they have all made good music in the past, Sweet and Lynch making a good Hard Rock track this year, Michael Sweet can still be a good songwriter if he doesn’t let his politics take over the message, and this one was a good example of that.
Today is one of my faorite keyboardists, Rick Wakeman’s, Birthday. I would be remiss, though, if I didn’t mention this is the 6th anniversary of when Seattle-based grunge legend Chris Cornell took his own life. Back then, I was only beginning to know who he was. 6 years and now somewhat cleansed of the trauma of 2016-2021, I can actually mourn him and Rachel Held Evans. Neither took any garbage from the mentality of the people of then, Cornell through sarcasm, loud music and managing to fit in and befriend Alice Cooper, Slash, Johnny Cash and possibly Billy Ray Cyrus, he apparently brought Toni to the Hannah Montana set while the show was going on and Billy Ray mourned his death. He could be loud and raucous or soft, vulnerable and poignant. My only guess is the alcohol made his demons of fear about the Trump administration and that it’d be permanent override his ability to fight it and he could not take it. Such fears plague me from time to time, even now, because he won’t go away and our country hasn’t proved itself to be intelligent enough to repeatedly make the right choices. Somedays, the only thing that helps is some goal in the future you hope to meet, meet a voice actor/actress at a con, a new album/song/video game, the hope of Temari getting a Funko Pop, baseball games, concerts, family get-togethers, something like that. That’s honestly why I spend and pre-order so much, it reminds me there is a future to aim for. And it’s always a future worth reaching.
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