The Monster Within

Starting today, 5/13/2023, I’m only using Twitter for Music, Baseball Highlights and Birthday Posts.  I will check in on the people I’ve subscribed to twice a day and that’s it, the ultimate goal is to reduce it to zero by the end of the year.  Its highly politicized nature brings out the worst in me and makes me want to murder politicians.  Evil politicians, yes, but still men, and doing so would criminalize everything I hold dear.  I must cut off all interactions with the site and fade back to Facebook, where I’m not scared and I understand if no one responds.

It is honestly already working, I’m much calmer and less angry than I tend to be, more relaxed and less stressed out.  I still have some stress inside, but it’s only day one and maybe it’ll fade if I cut more out.  Honestly, I need to quit these people as cold turkey as possible.  I am not going to buy Cassette Beasts, I will only buy the Topsy McGee and the Sky Pirates trade paperback, RWBY x Justice League, Suzume and Trails into Reverie, then I will not buy anything just because a voice actor I like is in it.  It’s like Miley Cyrus, it’s turning into dangerous obsession where I feel I need to protect these people monetarily and through self-sacrifice, even if the product ends up being garbage or offensive.  You can get mad at people and still like them.  I just didn’t believe that because my parents divorced.  The worst thing you can do is be neurotically clingy, thinking you care, when you’re really just obsessed with preserving the pure image that is not real.  That is my biggest problem with people in general.  I did it with Miley Cyrus, Michael Sweet, Tara Platt, Sarah McKnight and Abby Trott, and now I’m sick of myself doing this junk.  It is unhealthy, dangerous and only ends with the obsessed person either committing suicide or murder to prove his or her love.  It is Dementia, which is why I think everyone in the apartment wants to murder me.  I need to stop going to Twitter, socialize in real life/Facebook and forget about voice actors.  Otherwise, I will go down in history alongside Mark David Chapman.  And saying that cleared me of the last of my stress.