Had Enough

     I can't sleep and all I'm seeing online is making it worse.  We shouldn't need to apologize or explain ourselves or make concessions to the far-right maniacs, the homophobes, the aggressive anti-inclusion people.  What they want is not right and them telling me it is right, I am "weird," "defective," "wrong" or even "evil" is making me lose it.  I saw a play about events 25 years ago this month, where Matthew Shepard was lynched for being gay, and not one so-called "Christian" in that play didn't say "he got what he deserved."  NOT A ONE.  I have read and read and read Scripture again and again, and I will say I don't know the specifics behind Paul writing Romans 1 or 1 Corinthians 6, my Dad might, Vicky Beeching might, but that attitude seems more sinful than anything I've done since.  "Christian" comes from Greek "Little Christ."  Is that what you think Jesus is?  TRULY?  A man who'd say "He got what he deserved" about MURDER?  Not even warmakers in this country say that about their victims, or they didn't until 2016, at least, when civil war was declared inside the United States, based AROUND and CAUSED BY the people who'd say that to begin with!  And I had to listen to you for more than a decade!  I was in a position where you were always right, and you know what I learned when I finally felt so alone and kicked in the crotch I left?  The only difference between me and an LGBTQ+ Christian IS orientation!

 

   We are both trampled on and kicked and beaten with words, "weird," "wrong," "Biblically illiterate," until we think them and hate our own body, mind and thoughts.  We respond by leaving and hurting, hurting like we're in actual HELL, begging for kindness.  We believe these painful words about ourselves and let others think for us, rather than trust our own brains.

 Thank GOD there are reconciling congregations.  Thank GOD there are people like this character's voice actress, her friend, writer Sarah McKnight, who wrote "Life Support" and her co-star Abby Trott, who present this gentleness and joy to this planet.

 

I can't stand that we need to explain ourselves online because some deluded fucks think this is equated to Hitler and will rip apart the United States and all of social media to prove it.  I'm through explaining myself, I'm the glasses-wearing, goatee having nerd on the bus who listens to Miley Cyrus, Judas Priest and Lynyrd Skynyrd and thinks 1975 is the most underrated year of classic rock, all because all I've gotten is silence or disapproval until I finally presented that to my parents and I was scared to because their friends and neighbors kept seeing it first.  I'm a Coverdale-Hughes-Bolin junkie whose favorite Fleetwood Mac songs are "Over My Head," "Rhiannon," "Landslide," "Don't Stop," "The Chain" and "Gold Dust Woman."  Hi, I'm a weirdo who likes Hagar more than Roth.  Accept it or leave me alone, because I'd show you that courtesy.