Yesterday, I saw "Inside Out 2" with my Mom. What amazed me and relieved me the most was how they portrayed the Anxiety character. It was like looking in a mirror of my own mind, there are many times I've thought "I'm not good enough," or "If I do this, bad things won't happen, I NEED to do it!" One of the big problems I've felt I've had with this mental disorder is being unable to explain or describe how my mind works. Now I can tell people to watch the movie and they'll understand better how my brain processes things, constantly scared of consequences oftentimes made up or scenarios that it hasn't been called for.
An example is I keep wondering if the only way to beat Christian Nationalism is for a peaceful, pro-LGBTQ+ and science Christian Elijah to defeat the false prophets of Trump and if I'm that Elijah. But I don't think I have the absolute Faith to taunt literalists or pour water on an altar and make a moat and trust that God will incinerate it. I trust my Dad to have such Faith, but I would think that God would possibly shun me in the name of a greater plan my mind cannot yet comprehend. It is said "don't put God to the test," after all. But still, they ruin countless lives and I just want one fell stroke to stop it, like the prophets of old, or at least the VeggieTales versions of them, just screaming "Stop It!" and they listen and it's over. Our suffering people deserve no less.
What I need is to be reminded of the good that’s already here and won’t go away and maybe there’s a good chance for such good in the future. The hopeless culture of today preys upon my fears, threatening uniform dress code for males and females and no LGBTQ+ stories. I’m not gay, but if a woman wants to wear pants, she should, and the stories of Edelgard and Byleth and Yang and Blake are touching and empowering. There are stories told that should keep being told, not just for me, but for the many, many people who enjoy them.
There was once an attempted cartoon on a crowdfunding website called Kickstarter called “New Wave,” it would be a send-up of the 1980s. Tara Platt, Yuri Lowenthal and Abby Trott were all to appear in it. To advertise it, I played a second playthrough of Fire Emblem; Three Houses’ Black Eagles route with the intention of recruiting Annette so Edelgard and Annette would be front and center. The cartoon fell through, but I came to love Annette second only to Edelgard and would later buy plushies of both them and Byleth, the protagonist.
Another little story is that an over-the-top, larger-than-life character named Furina made a huge impact on me as a voice actress named Sarah Miller Crews played Genshin Impact. She had the tragic backstory of starting off humble, but becoming large in presence because the people she was in dialogue with expected that of her. She is played by Amber Lee Connors. I then played a game called Unicorn Overlord and Amber Lee Connors played a Wyvern Knight called Hilda. With that in mind, I bought a Furina plush (coming tomorrow) to remember the other character and have earmarked her as the likely spouse of the protagonist. Furina’s attitude, to be both big and over-the-top, yet very human, rubbed off on me very positively. Also, Hilda’s Wyvern playfully chews the protagonist’s hair. “That means he likes you!”
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