Friday, September 27, 2024

Pain

     It's been longer than usual, I've been following the Mariners and Phillies and, to a lesser extent, the Orioles, as the regular season draws to a close.  Yes, I am disappointed the Mariners didn't make the playoffs, but I feel they put together a competent team with Julio, Cal Raleigh, Luke Raley, Randy Arozarena, Victor Robles, Logan Gilbert, George Kirby, Bryce Miller and Bryan Woo.  I imagine with Tyler Locklear and Harry Ford and a few acquisitions, this team will be good enough for a wild card spot.  The Phillies and Orioles have no problems, and the biggest lesson the Mariners can learn from them is to humanize the players more, show them at leisure, not just playing baseball and talking about how well they did.  Maybe it won't improve the team, but it gives a sense of connection and community with the team.

 

   Now, onto the title.  No, it isn't about politics, though those running the fundraisers have no confidence in the people they are trying to convince unless they have tons of money, money I can't afford to give.  It all started with that, giving $80, then ending up overdrawn because I had to buy my brother and sister-in-law's presents, because I scheduled that time to do it.  The next week, it was food and iTunes that put me in the red, same with the week after,  This week, it was iTunes, an Amazon order and needing to eat that put me in the red until Monday, and my sink backed up today for the first time in years, and I keep feeling sad because I keep remembering this old Chuck Jones cartoon called "Tom Thumb in Trouble" made a couple years before he was funny and it's about this lumberjack-looking man reduced to tears because he thinks Tom died in a blizzard and he has to bathe him in his cupped hands and take care of him from everything.  Also I've seen too much politics about how the fat right wing doofus is an imbecile and too much gossip about how BRC may not love his ex-wife or his middle, 1992-born daughter anymore or ever again and hearing Twitter become a mindless Johnny Depp cult and people call Gal Gadot a "Zionist who can't act" and wish for Amber Heard's death.  And I can't take it.  Haven't I been through enough?  I'm trying to influence the algorithm of YouTube with performance videos and music videos and it's doing no good and all I want to do is cry.  I am spending more and more days feeling too hurt to recognize any goodness in the world.  I just want it to stop.

Tuesday, September 17, 2024

Rocktober/Halloween 2024, iTunes variety/I can't settle down

 The main purpose of this entry is to let you all know the iTunes version of the Rocktober/Halloween 2024 playlist.


Halloween 2024:

1.)    Panic Attack-Judas Priest

2.)    Event at the Horizon-Bear McCreary, Esjay Jones

3.)    Iron Man-Zakk Sabbath

4.)    I Am The Fire-Halestorm

5.)    I Stand Alone-Godsmack

6.)    Children of the Grave-Zakk Sabbath

7.)    Crown of Horns-Judas Priest

8.)    Into the Void-Zakk Sabbath

9.)    Giants in the Sky-Judas Priest

10.) When Death Calls-Black Sabbath

11.) After Forever-Zakk Sabbath

12.) Victim of Changes (Live 1979)-Judas Priest

13.) RATATATA-BabyMetal, Electric Callboy

14.) Crazy Train (Live 1981)-Ozzy Osbourne

15.) Iron Man (Live 2017)-Black Sabbath

16.) Straight Through The Heart-Halestorm

17.) The Automaton’s Heart-Bear McCreary, Brendan McCreary

18.) Ronnie Rising Medley-Metallica

19.) Halls of Valhalla-Judas Priest

20.) I Am The Fire (Live)-Halestorm

21.) Monster Mash-Alice Cooper

22.) Shot in the Dark (Live 1989)-Ozzy Osbourne

23.) Ride the Lightning-Halestorm

24.) March of the Damned-Judas Priest

25.) Patient Number 9-Ozzy Osbourne, Jeff Beck

26.) Ride the Lightning-Metallica

27.) Breaking the Law (Live 2015)-Judas Priest

28.) Nothing Else Matters-Miley Cyrus, Andrew Watt, Elton John, Yo-Yo Ma, Robert Trujillo, Chad Smith

29.) Immortal-Ozzy Osbourne, Mike McCready

30.) Happy Halloween-Yuri Lowenthal, Tara Platt

31.) Red Eyes-Bear McCreary, Ryan Hurst

32.) Last Stop-Bear McCreary, Brendan McCreary

33.) Crack Cocaine-Billy Morrison, Ozzy Osbourne, Steve Stevens

34.) Love Bites-Judas Priest

35.) Escape from the Machines-Bear McCreary, Slash, Joe Satriani

36.) Neon Knights-Black Sabbath

37.) Saints in Hell-Judas Priest

38.) Sinner (Live 1979)-Judas Priest

39.) Eat Me-Ozzy Osbourne

40.) Leviathan-Bear McCreary, Corey Taylor

41.) The Sentinel-Judas Priest

42.) Neon Knights (Live 1980)-Black Sabbath

43.) Neon Knights-Queensryche

44.) Children of the Sea (Live 1982)-Black Sabbath

45.) Children of the Grave (Live 1982)-Black Sabbath

46.) The Needle Lies (Live 2007)-Queensryche

47.) Electric Requiem (Live 2007)-Queensryche

48.) I Don’t Believe In Love (Live 2007)-Queensryche

49.) Victim of Changes (Live 2015)-Judas Priest

50.) I Go Insane-Iommi

51.) Let it Down Easy-Tony Iommi and Glenn Hughes

52.) Eyes of a Stranger (Live 2007)-Queensryche

53.) Paranoid-Zakk Sabbath

54.) Paranoid (Live 2017)-Black Sabbath

 

Now, I know you've noticed I've been defeatist and afraid lately.  A lot of it comes from the fundraising emails, also I feel much more than most people do.  I felt the 4 years that Trump was in charge painfully, worrying every day he'd write that all LGBTQ+ people and their allies were to be thrown in the permafrost regions of the Cascades and Rockies to be tortured there.  It got worse when my uncle died and Roman Reigns got Leukemia.  2020 was a painful nightmare with wildfires, a shortened baseball season under tightened protocols and massive chunks of time doing nothing.  The only things that got me through it were Sailor Moon, Sailor Uranus and Neptune, Edelgard and Byleth, and Erza Scarlet, Wendy Marvell and Mirajane Strauss.  The only things that got me through the first three years were Gal Gadot, Jason Momoa, Amber Heard, Godzilla, Miley Cyrus, Carrie Underwood, Whitesnake, Sammy Hagar, Ozzy Osbourne, Judas Priest, Billy Ray Cyrus and Seattle-area bands.  And after January 6th, you can add Annette from Three Houses to that list.  Now I watch as people or themselves tear a significant amount of them down and I can do nothing.  The pain is severe and I keep thinking why WOULDN'T Trump win, America is full of idiots who are easily led astray.  Him saying "Grab 'em by the [vagina]" wasn't enough to derail his chances 8 years ago and it should've been.  I see the headlines on YouTube of him deteriorating every few hours, the polls shifting left, but is it enough to combat the cult?  He has ministers saying the most awful things to keep people in line voting for him, praising him, considering him the most Holy Man since either the Apostle Paul or Jesus himself.  That's why Faithful America is so important to me.  That's why I endure the fear, because there is a section of my religion that should not be, it is idolatrous, homophobic and violent and I want it to stop being the default "Christian."  I knew all those four years it was going to be the default "Christian" because of Trump and it became that.  People dropped out of Churches left and right, not wanted to be associated with the cult.  I want it gone, and the only way to fight it is to speak up in Jesus' name, say "That man is a fraud," "I love you lesbians," and "Let's have a metal party."  That's how I feel called right now.

Sunday, September 15, 2024

No sleep, too much emotion

     This whole week I've been plagued by an inability to contribute financially to Kamala Harris' campaign.  I've already spent $80 of my own money this month on the campaign and I know it is nowhere near enough; Trump still holds the advantage, if the election were run now, he'd be our President.  Even if he defecated and urinated on himself in the middle of one of his speeches, he'd be our new President come November.  Because Elon MuX, the 700 Club and every Fundamentalist denomination of Christianity is giving beyond the point that it hurts to ensure that they can ensure a new Christofascist Holocaust in American borders.  Stryper just released an album solely to donate money to Trump; the album's title is "When We Were Kings," connected to his "Take Back America, violently if possible" message.  You must give your life savings, beyond the point of starving because you can't afford groceries or the antichrist will recover from his deathblow and resume command of the world, with the world saying "Who is like this beast and who can stand against it?"

 

    I have somewhat forgiven Billy Ray Cyrus, he released a 9/11 "Some Gave All" video that while it did feature the antichrist, Biden and Harris were in the same shot, Biden and Harris respectfully giving a moment of silence while Trump turned off to complain, showing how little he cares for the soldiers who gave their all in war.  Probably not Billy Ray's intent, but still, a good reminder of who really cares about veterans and who doesn't.  Still, the age of BRC is coming to an end with me, he's not as bold environmentally or in other causes I believe in than he used to be, wrapping it so deep in metaphor it becomes useless.  He's also having a falling-out with Miley, who hasn't been as naked to warrant sexual complaints in almost a decade, instead showing a pansexual, gender-fluid ferocity that, while it shows off her body, also shows she's the one in control of her sex, not the imaginative person in the audience.  I was also more suspicious of the ones at the end of my rants than honestly believing anything, they mostly just have Republican friends or call themselves Republicans, but have never spoken about Politics since before 2016, so it's hard to say what they actually think.

 

    I don't feel in control anymore.  Dave Grohl and Jack Black got "internet shamed," I can't escape the fear that Trump's going to win, I'm hoping the Mariners will defy the odds and get into the playoffs, though it is unlikely, I wish the government would shut DeviantArt and Twitter down for promoting fascism so I could just go to BlueSky and talk to voice actors, artists and cosplayers and I feel really sad all the time over memories I can't forget or change.  I keep throwing my money at the Harris-Walz campaign, though I should be throwing it at my 3 concerts and Christmas presents and other priorities and everyone's telling me to diet better and exercise more.  I beat a video game I'd been working on for months and feel a little directionless because there are several that I'm not finished with yet and I don't know which one to do first, plus there are more I want later.  I feel broke most of the time and terrified of getting overdrawn or making a mistake, I've become a half-crazed perfectionist.  I feel no control unless I'm posting YouTube videos to BlueSky.

Monday, September 9, 2024

Fire Emblem Mage Tier Rankings A-E

 

    I had insomnia, so I decided to finish my tier list rankings for this in one post.


A-rank Characters:

Elise-I don’t know her voice actress.  She was mentioned in Sakura’s bio, she is the adoptive younger sister of Corrin.  While Sakura is shy and quiet, Elise is fun-loving and a little boisterous.  There is a lot of fanart of her and Sakura playing together, both on instruments and just like sisters.  Elise sadly dies in Birthright trying to help you.

 

Camilla-Voiced by Misty Lee, who is also a stage magician and may be Paul Dini’s wife.  Camilla has the title “Doting Sister,” but can be uncomfortable with Corrin because some of her requests of her adoptive sister seem rather sexual, such as bathing in hot springs.  Camilla is a powerhouse with an axe on a wyvern, and in Birthright, becomes Queen of Nohr.  This version appears in Heroes as a healer, which I’ve used to heal the regular Camilla in battle.

 

Mae-Voiced by Cherami Leigh.  She’s from Echoes, a game I know almost nothing about, but she is a competent mage and part of my team of characters voiced by Cherami Leigh, along with Caeda and Christmas Cecilia.  Cherami’s range is impressive since Mae sounds nothing like the other two.

 

Tharja-Voiced by Stephanie Sheh, who also voices Hinata in Naruto and Sailor Moon.  An effective dark mage with an unsettling crush on the protagonist of Awakening, regardless of gender.  She is probably the stronger mage in the game, but she’s also the one who would suggest cursing someone to be a snail for 2,000 years and not be kidding.

 

Lissa-Voiced by Kate Higgins, who also voices Sakura in Naruto and Purah in The Legend of Zelda.  Chrom’s sister and Lucina’s aunt, Lissa is an effective healer and adorable.  She paved the way for Sakura and Elise in the next game and I recall using her for quite some time in the game.  Also, I saw someone ask Kate Higgins to sign their Fire Emblem Awakening slip cover at Anime Washington, that was pretty cool.

 

Robin-Voiced by Lauren A. Landa, who also voices Annie Leonhardt and Sailor Neptune.  The protagonist of Fire Emblem Awakening and Chrom’s Best Friend Forever, unless you make the choices that make him/her turn into the Fell Dragon, in which case, they die.  Robin’s a good every-player character, mostly a blank slate, but there is also that Grima thing.  Still, it’s hard to hate the third wheel with Chrom and Lucina.

 

Sumia-A clumsy Pegasus knight who plays “Flower Fortunes” (she loves me, she loves me not) with “I’ll be safe, I’ll be dead, I’ll be safe, I’ll be dead.”  She is also a marvelous chef and skilled with a spear.  Sumia is one of my favorite characters because she is simple and childlike, even though she is an adult.

 

Constance-A character from Three Houses, Constance has two personalities, a “mad scientist/prom queen” and Eeyore from Winnie the Pooh.  She is manically happy and cackles gleefully as the former, then hopelessly miserable and looks for rocks to crawl under as the latter.  This confuses some characters like Petra.

 

Cordelia-Another Pegasus knight from Awakening.  She tries to break Sumia of her Flower Fortune habit, but Sumia reveals if it’s good, it inspires her, if it’s bad, she tries to make it not come true.  The leader of the Pegasus Knights of the Shepherds (Chrom’s group), Cordelia gives birth to Severa, a grouchy friend of Lucina’s who has a “it’s not like I like you” attitude.

 

Ivy-From Fire Emblem Engage.  Ivy inherits the Ice Nation of Elusia.  The Emblem ring of Lyn has been passed down for generations in her family and she uses it upon joining you.  Ivy wears a face net and is devoted to the Divine Dragon in a nation that worships the Fell Dragon.  She is also terrified of ghosts and makes for great comedy.

 

Celine-Voiced by Rachelle Heger.  The princess of the first kingdom you meet.  She is mostly kind and works well with the Celica ring, but if her peasants or tea is threatened, a dark side will emerge.  

 

Zelestia-Voiced by Elizabeth Maxwell.  Mirror-world Zephia, who we will cover later.  Kind and motherly, she leads the Four Winds against the forces seeking to use the Emblems to destroy each other.  I paired her with the Chrom and Robin Emblem because Matthew Mercer and Elizabeth Maxwell were both in “Attack on Titan.”

 

B-rank characters:

Death Knight/Jeritza-A man with mental demons.  Mercedes’ younger brother, he is a professor at Garreg Mach and one of Edelgard’s soldiers in her war of Freedom from the Church of Seiros.  Jeritza loves sweets and cats, but does not trust himself since he killed his own father for reasons unclear.  He calls this side of himself the “Death Knight” and it seems to revel in carnage.  Edelgard finds it useful, but Jeritza wants to be locked away so this Death Knight will expire in prison.  Edelgard is disappointed, but respects his wishes, as does Mercedes.

 

Linhardt-Lazy and doesn’t apply himself.  Technically the healer of the Black Eagles and a big crest researcher, but couldn’t think of anything more useful with that research than a lullaby for children.  Wanted to treat Lysithea as an experiment.  Was pretty much replaced by her and Annette in my second playthrough of Three Houses.

 

Ignatz-Voiced by Christian LaMonte.  A would-be world traveler and artist, but is Lorenz’s knight instead.  Got picked on by a Pegasus in Three Hopes.  Brilliant young man, but in the wrong profession and way too dedicated to his military life, will likely never get that world trip.

 

Rinkah-Effectively a human oni in the service of Hoshido.  Tough and strong, one of my more favorite characters in that game while playing it.  Had her A-rank Kaze, but Corrin’s supposed to A-rank Kaze or Kaze dies, which he did.  Seem to recall using her less as the game went on.

 

Corrin-Voiced by Marcella Lentz-Pope.  Protagonist of Fates, born Hoshido, raised Nohr.  Brothers are Ryoma, Xander, Takumi and another Nohr guy, sisters are Camilla, Hinoka, Sakura and Elise.  Turns into a dragon when stressed or has a Smash Ball.  Sword doubles as chainsaw.  Can seek to unify Hoshido and Nohr.

 

Beruka-Voiced by Stephanie Sheh.  Camilla’s wyvern-rider retainer.  Wields an axe like Camilla does.  Takes job to protect Camilla seriously.

 

Orochi-Hoshido Fortune Teller.  Reads characters’ fortunes and tells them if they will be lucky in love or do well in battle.  Can cast spells well.

 

Celica-Voiced by Erica Lindbeck, who also voices Futaba Sakura in Persona 5.  The protagonist of Echoes, a strong swordswoman.  Helps Celine in Engage and strong in Echoes.  Apparently can be corrupted.  Best friends with a young man named Alm.

 

C-rank characters:

Felix-Voiced by Lucien Dodge.  He’d be an okay character if he wasn’t so grumpy, he called Dorothea a “weirdo” and when his Christmas version in Heroes got points in every stat, his line was “Can I take off this ridiculous outfit now?”  To his credit, he is great with Annette (I’ve seen enough of their Support Conversations to suggest so), but I do wish he complained and grumbled less considering he’s in an army with Annette and Mercedes, you’d think that make him smile a bit more.

 

Lorenz-Voiced by Ben Diskin, who also voices Caspar in the game.  A snooty noble, he believes his job is to protect the commonfolk.  I hardly used him in Three Hopes outside of paralogues, getting his conversations through expeditions.  He considers Raphael and Shez lower because they are not nobles and that it is his job to protect them, despite them being much better in battle than he is.

 

Sylvain-I’d like Sylvain better if he didn’t remind me so much of Ferdinand from the Black Eagles, plus I’ve seen the “dumb guy has crush on smart girl” so many times it’s getting tiring.  His smart girl is spear-wielder Ingrid, a Pegasus knight.  Sylvain can splash you with his summer drink in Heroes, so that’s a plus.

 

Balthus-I pretty much just used this guy for training in Three Hopes to get his conversations.  He is a total meathead, by which I mean he thinks with his fists.  Edelgard refused him as a bodyguard and Shez tells him his fighting style will get him killed.  Still, there’s some charm about a compulsive gambler and drinker who will beat up anyone.

 

Hortensia-Ivy’s little sister.  A bit of a brat with very few offensive skills.  I honestly forgot about her when she wasn’t able to use attack staves in sparring matches, leaving her on the sidelines for the rest of the game.  Still, her character gets a happy ending by being in the party, though she wasn’t used much at all.

 

D-rank characters:

Flayn-I don’t know who voices her.  Her relative Seteth reminds me of judgmental conservative Churchgoers, so that’s a problem, plus, I already knew I wanted to be Edelgard’s friend, which meant I never got too deep into Flayn unless there wasn’t any option.  The first time I played Three Houses, I missed a lot of opportunities solely because I didn’t want to get close to someone I knew I’d have to kill later.

 

Rodrigue-I don’t know who voices him.  Felix’s Dad and high-ranking in Faerghus.  You need to kill him by your own hands and not harm Byleth if you want to recruit Byleth in Three Hopes, so maybe it’s a little lower than it’d be if I met him more, but I seem to recall him or Felix are ruthless at killing your troops in a Faerghus stage, so I don’t really like him.

 

Rhajat-Voiced by Stephanie Sheh.  This is just a copy of Tharja that you need one of your child units to produce.  It’s the only way to get lesbian marriage in Fates.  It’s unsavory and you’re likely to marry before you even get the young man to marry somebody.

 

E-rank characters:

Solon-Those Who Slither In The Dark guy.  Hinted to be involved in torturing Edelgard or Lysithea.  Kidnapped Monica to replace her with Kronya.  Tries to kill Byleth.  Experiments with Remire Village, making it go crazy and attack everyone in the village.

 

Seiros/Rhea-Voiced by Cherami Leigh.  Demi-goddess, daughter of Sothis.  Creates laws where most important thing is she can’t be criticized or you die.  Makes religion focused on self the state religion of Faerghus.  Says punishment comes from goddess.  The right-wing evangelical who discourages individuality.

 

Cornelia-Those Who Slither In The Dark woman.  Tortures Hapi until every time she sighs, a monster appears.  Infiltrates Faerghus court.

 

Gharnef-Guy who worships Medeus, the Fell Dragon.  Brings him to life in original Fire Emblem and Tokyo Mirage Sessions.  Looks like Dr. Doom and Mysterio in those games, respectively.  Evil wizard.

 

Thales-The guy who tortured Edelgard and killed her 10 siblings.  He has no remorse.

 

Zephia-Voiced by Elizabeth Maxwell.  Dragon sorceress who tortures Veyle and brings out her evil side.  Tries to collect all Emblem Rings and works for Sombron.

 

Sombron-Alien dragon seeking Emblem he lost.  Creates army of offspring he feels no love for to find Emblem rings.  Nearly destroys reality in his quest.  Created Alear and Veyle and feels nothing for them other than they are “failures” because they won’t serve him or turn into dragons.