faith

     I've had several surgeries; hernia, sinus and spinal fusion-in that last one, the morphine machine broke on the second night.  It felt like my spine was wrapped in fire.  I have an anxiety disorder and clinical depression, so it's hard to talk out loud and when things hurt, they HURT.  My Mom says I hurt worse than the people actually experiencing the pain.  My parents divorced when I was 12, shortly after I turned 13, my Dad remarried.  It wasn't my fault, but try convincing a 13-year-old that.  I felt second-fiddle to my older brother and wanted harmony in the world, I didn't like the popularity of family Guy and the Da vinci Code at the time because it disrespected my God.

 

    In college, I saw a new disrespect that I thought might've caused the first, The Laramie Project.  Several Christian men said Matthew Shepard "got what he deserved," breaking my heart and angering me.  At the time, Samus and Zelda in the Super Smash Bros. game looked like a cute couple, they are both women.  This led to me getting violently lectured by respected people at the Church I attended at the time as they shoved Sodom, Gomorrah and Leviticus 20:13 in my face.  I stopped knowing who to trust there and left 4 years later, not before they emblazoned on my brain the idea that God punishes transgressors on Earth.

 

    I went to a reconciling congregation and all was well for a year and a half, then Satan incarnate conquered the White House as the 45th President.  With an unholy blend of fascism, Stalinism and prejudice, he almost destroyed the United States, got us into war with North Korea, declared himself Emperor for life and publicly executed the entire Democrat Party for treason.  The archbishop Rhea claiming a man was turned into a monster "as punishment by the goddess" seemed to come straight from Trump and his pastor cronies perversion of Christianity, which was there before his election to keep the youth in line and tell them "The Democrat Party is the Church of Satan."

 

    Of all the heinous crimes the Republicans do, this burns me up the most.  It is an excuse to refuse the Christian element of compassion due to politics or other philosophical differences by saying "they broke the rules, they got what they deserved, forget them."  I imagine Trump and Larry the Cable Guy, who only plays an idiot, but is an aggressive SOB on Twitter over Stryper and feminism, laughing and toasting champagne at the news of the death of Rachel Held Evans, an openly Christian author who criticized their patriarchal nationalist ways, at a young age, as to them, it would mean God is truly on THEIR side, opposing such puny threats and smiting them.  It makes me doubt, then, in anger, I declare this:

 The Republican Party's definition of good is solely what benefits their ideal, which they are willing to sacrifice any man, woman or child to achieve.  Give them no votes, no money and don't believe their lie that they are the only Christians in America.  I have a hard time believing they're Christians, at all.