Some darkness

     I have to get this off my chest because it is really affecting my sleep.  The Republicans have a thing called "Project 2025" and it is my catastrophisations in one single document, detailing mass incarceration of LGBTQ+ folks and their allies and reducing women's role to breeding stock.  I wish I could say I made this up, but I'm hearing about it from feminists and Faithful America and all I can think of is the consequences of Biden losing will be the start of a road to a new Holocaust in the name of making America MAGA's definition of "Christian."  They do not see God's image in anyone who is not in their camp, especially not LGBTQ+ humans.  I've posted like mad this month trying to remind people that these are human beings who just want peace, freedom and the right to work and have fun and not be bothered.  I've posted Judas Priest, Miley Cyrus, Demi Lovato, Queen, Edelgard, Yang, Blake and their voice actresses and I still feel like it's all in vain.  I hate to admit this as a Christian, but I feel God is giving me my two favorite Fire Emblem; Three Houses voice actresses and two favorite Fairy Tail voice actresses in these two conventions as a way of saying "2024 will be the last good, free year you will have."  And I still want to see Jeannie Tirado and Amber Lee Connors now that I've been playing Unicorn Overlord, see the Mariners play the Orioles in the hopes of seeing Baltimore's new outfielder Colton Cowser, who tossed a game-winning ball into Kauffman Stadium's fountains, which happened to be Craig Kimbrel's 422nd save, tying him with Billy Wagner, so he had to get it out, finding out baseballs sink after 10 minutes in water.  He did get it fished out and the next day, hit a home run of his own into the fountain, commenting in an interview that they could keep that one.  The Orioles have also given him a fan section where people dress as cows and milkmen and cow-themed merchandise is available.  I also want to see the Mariners play Shohei Ohtani and the Dodgers and I also want to see the Rockies as they are the last MLB franchise I've never seen.

    I also worry I offended Amber Lee Connors recently by accidentally tweeting an AI image of Furina to her, I spent over 10 years on DeviantArt, it is hard to train my brain to stop using it to get images of fictitious characters, and Furina is one of my favorites from Genshin Impact for her larger-than-life personality and the sad backstory that created it.  She is very much a master of the stage, making her court trials into elaborate affairs with a flair with words that includes a mix of French such as "Cardinale" and her goddess' name, "Focalors."  However, a flashback reveals Focalors created Furina to bide time to save the population of Fontaine and Furina was initially modest and humble.  But she was not taken seriously as a goddess' avatar like this, so she became flashier and showier until the old Furina was gone and a larger-than-life Furina was in her place.  There seems to be a common thread in storytelling of stretching someone until they are unrecognizable, forcing them to conform to an unforgiving world in an attempt to better it, when what they want instead is simple and peaceful.  Or maybe I'm just looking at myself, I didn't want to work in politics at all, I just wanted to help the hurting.  Now, I can't sleep, I'm trying too hard to remember meeting Tara Platt and I'm worried about saying the right thing to Abby Trott.  I just want to let go and truly trust God, but my anxiety makes that so hard.  Mainly because, there are so few people I trust anymore, I half-expect to be insulted every day, I expect to live up to a standard only I am really checking, yet I keep expecting someone to criticize me.  DeviantArt would behave just like that, I really wish I had quit sooner.