This isn't going to be just another Political post, at least, I'm going to try to make it less overtly Political. Back from 2012-2016 I followed the Christian Metal Band Stryper heavily, buying all their albums, their autobiography, getting introduced to Hair Metal through them...I became well and truly obsessed. Everyone around me let me know my obsession was good, because they even printed Isaiah 53:5 on their album covers, the verse is where they got their name. They had been through the usual rock and roll ups and downs, money problems, trouble staying faithful, yet they kept God at the center and never actually had sex with another woman.
The trouble began on November 23rd, 2015, when Michael Sweet tweeted Miley Cyrus, the birthday girl, effectively belonged in Hell to pay the consequences for enjoying sex and expressing so in her performances. Miley's always held the point of "only God judges," but certainly, revealing outfits sometimes don't feel quite right. This was also when the "stream of consciousness on acid" album Dead Petzzz came out, making it look like Miley Cyrus was willing to sacrifice being relatable to be "artsy fartsy" because she felt it made her enlightened. I can't speculate on the eternal destination of such people, but I will say they're annoying as heck.
Sweet then made a move that drove a wedge between him and me, as well as him and probably 53% of the United States and 90% of the Planet, he endorsed the combover Furher. Actually, endorsed is too polite a word, it's more like he switched gods and couldn't unstaple his lips from Trumps ass. Less than a year after the above comment, he actually told people it was okay for the NeoNazi to be President despite saying "Grab them by the [vagina]." That was the point I gave up on him.
I’ve blamed myself for so much because I couldn’t stop Michael Sweet from endorsing Trump in 2016. He followed me on Twitter and I warned him more times than I can think. I warned and cautioned and declared so much and things didn’t change. Sometimes we do all we can and people are just too thick-skulled to get our message. I got addicted to rage and porn to cope with my feelings. My apartment grew cluttered with used soda cans and soda bottles as I did nothing but browse for more and more music, art, anything to get my mind off it. As they'll tell you at AA, "once is one too many, and a thousand is never enough." I often stopped shaving and showering, feeling like I was one executive order away from being beaten to death in permafrost, so what did it matter if I looked and smelled emaciated and homeless? Even though good things happened, I couldn't see a time past the present and I honestly still have trouble with this. Oftentimes, I just wanted to scream Ozzy Osbourne lyrics at the top of my lungs, but I was always scared some far-right neighbor would barge in and start doing the Carrie's Mom "drowns her in the sink while reciting the Lord's Prayer to exorcise her" scene only while also beating my stomach and groin. Even with Biden in office, these people still take it upon themselves to preach a distorted "Gospel" full of conspiracy theories and probably the belief that Nazis are gay and pagan.
Thankfully, things are notably improving. I felt good enough to walk today, I no longer feel like I need to play video games everyday; in fact, after this year, I honestly think I just want MiiTopia, the Hyrule Warriors; Age of Calamity DLC and Metroid Dread (provided they didn't force Samus to have a boyfriend again), then I might retire from buying new video games. The gaming community is too vicious for my tastes, rigid, uptight, angry nerds who look down on you if you haven't memorized every piece of a voice actresses' filmography and unwritten rules over what anime and video games are "winners" and which are "losers," as well as subrules denoting the "winners" and "losers" in each's cast. It is more exhausting and more trouble than it's worth, so as of August 6th, this will be my hub for all of my fan fiction. I am looking forward to this new step and I hope this will lead to more and better things here.
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